m-e-r-v-y-n

2006-08-05T00:56:00.000+08:00

Its been awhile since i wrote to this blog of mine ( astig ano po?! )...hehehehe...i miss bloggin!!!!...well due to some restrictions in office and my work sked cant buy my time to update my life in the net...but what keeps me busy dis past few months?...well i dont know perhaps im lazy to divulge any info in my life...complicated kc e...wehehehehehe...but as i feel wat will keeps me busy for the next month is uncertain..but i hope its not wat i fear for....leaving is such a hard emotional word that even i myself have a hard time to comprehend....i hope i will not leave anyone if i can...

my month of feb.....

2006-02-28T03:03:00.000+08:00

feb. has almost ended and im still thinking of wat will i do for the rest of the year...oh GOD im still in the planning stage of my life until now...im not sure of everything in this world, somethings will turn in your way while sometimes or not always it will go either way....life is unpredictable, passionate and always complicated, no matter how simple you want it to be....i guess sometimes we have to give-up on things that sometimes or maybe always we used to be....it maybe hard or the least that you will expect painfull...that sometimes you asked the Almighty One to give you a strength, courage and greater treshold for pain....life is a mystery unfolding before our eyes, everyday is an opportunity to discover new things, learn new thoughts and change our principle in our life....we made mistakes, sometimes we knew it and no matter how we knew it we dont care the consequences it may take us...sometimes we knew it but we miscalculate the risk we take and it blew us away just as we never expected to happen...sometime we life as bliss, this happens when we are in a phase of our life with no worries or minimal problems at all...as they say, im in control of it....things happens so fast and now its just feb. of the year, more blessings, trials and challenges will come my way...just like last year, sometimes it is called the aftermath of what we have done from the past that will hunt us today....worst it could affect our future...hope im talking sense with this post...why i share this views instead of stories or anecdotes of my life?....well let's just say that my stories are worth the entire space of this world wide web....hehehehe...hope things will go on our way, even if were on the opposite side of this world....Lenten season is near ( ash wed na nga pala tom...hehehe ) Jesus will once again redeem us in our sins ( commemoratively )....wish me happy and ok because i wish you all the best, Please LORD, help me...because YOU destroyed death and im keeping my faith with YOU...Ü

finally im back

2006-02-09T22:08:00.000+08:00

it took me almost 2 months to have an update on my blog...( hope you miss me...hehehehe..)...i forgot to write a year-end achievements of happenings for the 2005 and i know its too late to write it and im scrapping dat idea in my mind right now...what's going on my mind ryt now?!...well nothing special, im not busy or anything...but why it took me dis long to write a simple post on my blog?...well many things happened and worth a space in my blog but i guess the motivation or urge to write is not dat strong to come-up a post for it...i know many things happened, celebrations and special occassions worth to write and retold but honestly the "the gana factor maybe is gone"...am i busy on work, not dat much naman, as i said many things happened and worth a space in my blog...but i guess im not in da mood for it...but i assure you those things happened were worth remembering in my entire life...wat keeps me busy nowadays?...as ive said maybe nothing special, its always simple but maybe complicated...hehehehe...im still in da thinking mood for my plans for this whole year to do...setting goals and dreaming of something i needed and wanted to...i didnt realize february has arrived ( ganun talaga pagminsan walang paki sa ibang bagay )...now im trying to change ways, d way i see things and appreciate something, i even try to be sensitive an insensitive at the same time just to ignore somethings i do not want to feel...

and since its feb. i just miss the feeling of being a hopeless romantic and one of the cynics in this time of the year...i was good in making mushy and chessy stuff pa naman...hehehehe...unexpected things happened at unexpected time...im always caught off guard with it...and finally for almost 6 months of no communication she texted me and ease my mind about her health although she is still struggling but she is alive and this time positive about life...im happy just to be assured dat she is still alright but still its just from there dat will keep us to be...as of now d last time got in touch with her was the last week of jan...maybe she is still busy in recovering and getting her treatment serious and focus....one thing i was assured den dat if she will be alright she will tell me...one thing dat i assured of her and told her so many times dat im still here no matter wat...as a friend, a brother and still a lover...but still we agreed to not push things so hard on us...im happy to hear from her dat she is doing church work...she is active in dat thing and dat makes me surprise and wen i told her dat im focusing myself on priesthood maybe after my sister pass the board exams keeps the tone of our conversation normal again...

im still sad and lonely thinking so much things in life...people around has its own delimma and somehow i just listen to them...sometimes i want to open up a part of myself but still im afraid dat no one listen and nobody cares...mybe its just ok for me to have this on my own...after all listening to other peoples sintiment and feelings and sometimes giving sound advice would also keep me happy for i have helped someone i my own little way...

there is so many things going to happen, i now it for sure....since change is a constant thing in this in this world...wat i have learned ( actually wat im learning ryt now ) is the art of letting go...theres no definite ways on how to do it but still you have to...some says its not an art since it is a phase of life but as far as i know i have to learned it or should i say always learning it just to make me a better person dat i will be...in the end if we have learned how to let go, maybe who knows it may become a habit...a thing they called one of the phases in our life....somehow i hope that pain should not exist in my dictionary or maybe if it is impossible i hope that i have a great amount of treshold for pain....greater than i expected, dat i wanted and that i knew...somehow im trying to have it and if i have it....

should i stop this post....yes i have to so that you could read more sensible post the next time you visit my blog....i ask and beg for prayers for those people whom nobody would pray for them, i just learned this art of giving prayers in San Beda since college and also heard it everytime i novena at St. Jude....at least somehow you help others without knowing it...Ü

christmas season '05

2005-12-29T01:09:00.000+08:00

a girl made a verbal comment on my post bout the nine mornings, she said that why do i go to dawn mass and complete the 9 nine mornings just to have a wish....i cant think of a sensible answer to her but then again out of nowhere i just said that i wish naman for world peace e so ok lang un and i just dont hear/attend mass just to have a wish cyempre i go to simbang gabi because to prepare me for the advent season and birth of the Emmanuel...hay naku i love this season talaga kc dis is the season were i always hear the song the 1st noel...hehehe la lang its my name kc e...i was fondly called noel wen i was in grade skul and hayskul even nung college ako i was still called NOEL...ahihihihi...how did i spend christmas season?..well first of all it started las september pa i started saying na im accepting xmas gifts na ( well my tradition since college pa ko ), kaso parang biglang nawala ung xmas mood nung past ber months na...den all of a sudden i felt it sobrang late na yata mga december 12 wen i was rushing to buy kris kringle gifts and start attending the dawn masses...hehehehe...tapos until now i have gifts to my officemates kaso ung elf ko ( c boggs ) bagal magbalot ng gifts e...hehehehe...sorry po ha....=) sa wakas naidaos din ung Christmas, but i hate to admit it mejo materialistic na ung view ng madame sa Xmas and sometimes naging ganun din me kaso i still find time to reflect the true meaning of it before it was too late...every simbang gabi dat i attend i try to honest and solemn dat i could pagmoment wid GOD na ung part ng mass...i try to make it a point na im still lucky to have HIM in my life..i was still thankful to GOD na somehow HE made me realize na i have somehow moved on na...twas Xmas party in our company and i dont know if i was fortunate or not because an unexpected situation happen to me...i was running late for the party and i was worried were i will be seated, unluckily i was with boggs but still fortunate to be with rach and rollypolly dat i was with them....the girl whom i was fascinated wen the 1st time i saw her ( damn i dont know wat sign is this pro im glad i now appreciate others coz it also happen to another girl but honestly it is just an admiration after all ) sat at our table...and oh boy i cant understand how i reacted, maybe it was just hyped by boggs teasing, im almost half done with my food wen all of a sudden i cant eat na, maybe i lose my apetite then or i was conscious of her existence...grabe i cant believe im writing bout her pro ok na din cguro na iexpress wala naman masama e, at least im now in the realization na i was not single anymore, but still i have a tagged na im single and not looking...ahihihihi...its a good thing na i appreciate beautiful people around me, before kc ang magaganda lang sakin c mama, noemil and c mae now at least nagfufunction na ung eyes ko to see and appreciate...d na ung umiikot sa iisang tao kundi sa iba din, nakikibagay na ko at nagkikisalamuha na sa mundo....hinde gumagawa ng sariling mundo kundi gumagalaw kasabay ng mga taong kasama ko sa iisang mundo...buti na lang talaga i wish for world peace...hehehehe...if there's one thing i have learned bout xmas and this year, it is learning to let go, i have not yet finished this course maybe this art of letting go will be a continuing course for me till next year or until i have totally let go of something dear to me...=)...

Lord grant me the wisdom to be the person YOU want to be...

finally nine mornings....

2005-12-24T09:25:00.000+08:00

for so long i have finally completed the simbang gabi...after a long long time kc as far as i remember mejo sobrang bata ko pa nung nakacompleto me ng simbang gabi...wala lang sobrang sacrifice ung gagawin mo para makompleto cya...grabe talaga and cyempre ung wish sa ika 9th morning ko e world peace...hehehehe...funny ba or mejo not expected...honestly un po talaga i also wish for a peace of mind next to that...wala na me hiniling kc mejo i was blessed naman this year e....i dont ask for any personal gain sa pagsasacrifice ko ng simbang gabi kc somehow im in a state were i can almost give-up everything to serve...actuallly im ready na to be a priest...maybe dat was my frustration pro hinde din im not doing this out of frustration din...db im doing this because the calling to serve became louder and louder for me to hear and so clear for me to answer a worthy call...were just counting the hours and its Christmas na....considering how my life turned upside down im still thankful for HIM for always guiding me...HE is always so great that sometimes i even question HIM why HE have to do dat to me pro cyempre i have to understand...I always try to seek what path HE outlays for me and im willing to take what path HE wants for me...MERRY CHRISTMAS.....AMEN....=)

kuya 101

2005-12-08T07:05:00.000+08:00

I stayed late at d office yesterday and arrived at home at around 1 pm na...and guess wat my sister knocked her head at our apartment's wall upstairs...we live kc at the 3rd floor so we have to climd our way upstairs and we need to have enough light to manage to see our path way up the stairs...my sister arrived before me and i feel guilty at that moment kc feeling ko if i arrived at a much earlier time maybe i will light the path to our flat and she will not get hurt...i feel so much guilty kc she cry so hard and she said to me na "kuya its so sakit talaga i feel like my head is spliting into two na"...i was so mad at myself telling that if come earlier it will not happen and to think na she did was not familiar in our place so i have to make adjustment for her kc review school adjustments na makes hard on her tapos dadagdag pa ko sa stress nya...another bad thing is i dont have a medicine kit sa bahay which i feel like i was so helpless on her pain and she kept weeping at my sight...all dat i could do is to hug her and place an ice on her head with a clean cloth...i was so hysterical din wen she told me right after she opened the door for me wat happened and came to comfort her...i had a go nuts donut pasalubong pa naman at dat time and i went nuts on thinking how to help her kc even she was also hysterical...i cant kept thinking talaga na it was my fault...i feel like i was a bad kuya on her and had forgotten my responsibilities on her and syempre i have not tell my mom bout wat happen i will tell her cguro mya pag-uwi ko pag mejo hinde maga ung ung bukol ng sister ko ganun kc ako gusto ko sasabihen ko pag-ayos na para ikukukwento ko na lang and hinde na cla mag-aalala...my sister was also saying na kuya look oh my forehead is swells na oh and red na red na kanina nga e mejo violet cya e...so after we settle down and mejo nag-ease ung pain ng head nya dun pa lang me nakapagprepare ng lunch namen at around 3pm na yata un e...i tell her wat happen, she told me na she was slip at the stairs kc she is looking for the switch of the lights and unluckily nga naslip nga cya which cause her to hit the wall on the second floor stairs...it happened at around 30 mins daw before i arrived kc sabi nya kakadating din daw nya e...biro mo a 30 mins late could mean so much pala, i just feel so bad for myself i even cried on my way sa office kanina thinking bout that incident...i guess i should be more of kuya first before anything else kc she is still weak pa, she still dont know the danger of this concrete jungle....i almost want to cry nga at dat moment wen i saw her and heard her story kaso i have to ba an example of a strong person so even i panic and became hysterical i manage pa din to have composure and fortress of strenght pa din para d cya lalong maapektuhan...i still remember wen i was in college freshman days ko na my certain nights na i almost cry because of loniliness, disappoinments, failure and pains...i also think na im not really superman, im just a nobody simpleng pag-aalaga lang sa kapatid d ko pa nagawa...i was trying my best pa naman to be a responsible kuya pa naman pro bat ganun parang i still failed...my brother always look up to me as his superman ( good thing hinde dad ko )...bakit ganun i know der will be more dilemma to come on me and simple lang to, i tought im doing right to protect her and keep her away from harm....hope i could be superman to them, sa family ko, sa mahal ko sa buhay, why do i always feel helpless wen dis situation comes to me...kahit sa family ko na lang maging superman ako or sana ung mga masasamang mangyari sana sakin na lang mangyari wag na sa kanila, kc having undergone so much pain in life, i think the feeling of suffering, pain and agony is stranger to me na...i think as i grow old i have to still learn, im not a perfect kuya naman e and a realization din na we grow old na, im not the superman dat they knew wen they were young....wen i arrived at the office kagabi i still think about them pa din, pro cyempre i came here to work so i wear my happy worry free mask na ulit....sana d na masakit ung ulo ng sister ko i still worry about her so much...hay naku so much for this na and i have to be home na so that this incident would not happen again...

a very long weekend part 2

2005-11-23T04:04:00.000+08:00

wen did we stop o yes we stop at 19/11 pala after da harry potter movie

20/11

we went na to manila with my sister, cyempre she is taking the review for her cpa board on may e...d ko inisip na burden sakin ung sister ko kc im helping her to achieve her dreams and im a loving kuya to her willing ot help and support her all the way...and cyempre 1st day pa lang nya sa maynila na magstay ng matagal ang hirit e starbucks kagad...astig noh...hehehehe...no i want to pamper her as much as i can kc un lang ung tanging magagawa ko just to show my support and cheer her up e...i love her so much na kahit mukhang max-out na credit card ko e cge pa din...now im beginning to be dependent on credit cards which i fear so much, but then i again just to see her and her dreams and also think of my family, the negative tots just flow away in an a snap....

21/11 da 1st day on review school

cyempre just as i expect, me pa ung nervous kesa sa kanya...now im beginning to feel my mom's feelings the moment wen we set our foot on school on our 1st day...i prepare breakfast and alwaysa check her if she's ready na...hay naku parang mommy me dat time talaga, now para ko nakita c mama sa sarili on how she always remind us on our stuff and things to do...cant believe i did that nga e...hehehehe...so hinatid ko sister ko sa review school and wen i saw her classmate mejo mga bata pa naman e...tapos i heard one of them na astig ung bf neto o kalbo mukhang siga, den dun sinabi saken ng sister ko na dat was the use pala of shaving again my head to scare suitors...sabi ko nga no my dear lalo nga me bumata e sabe bf mo daw me...ahihihihi...den after her class at around 1pm which i expect her to come home na, but then again wala pa cya...so i panic na ( 1 hour late lang ha panic na agad )...i have prepared na our lunch and almost ready na and sent her almost 10 text messages na no reply at all...so im beginning to worried na, kc naman e she did not tell me dat she will be with her classmate to get some reviewer...kaso da bad thing kc dun e she didnt tell me bout dat and it made me freak-out and really worried bout her...so dumating cya at around 2:30-3pm na yata cyempre me naman e iba sa mama ko i just stay cool, tell her to take the shower muna den eat na her lunch...den after it she tell me dat she ran - out of load na and texted me naman with her friends fon..so ako cool pa din mejo stiff pro cool pa din...den she made lambing na sakin coz she noticed dat im giving her a cold treatment e, so ako para sakin pagpansin na nya un e pwede ko na cya pagsabihan kc yoko namang pagsabihan pa cya na hinde nya pansin na mas nadisappoint me sa kanya or may mali cya na nagawa...im not angry on her, im just sad and disaapointed dat she never told me her plans pala e balak ko pa naman na mejo magstroll kame sa mall sa afternoon para marelax cya e...hay naku if she only knew na masakit din sakin ung pagsasabihan cya, all i do is to care for her welfare nothing else...i knew the pain before of being independent and now im still having hard time adjusting on it...the pain of being lonely away from the one who really cares for you and loves you so much...i still miss them and if i know dat i can forseen danger to happen all i want is to warn and somehow if i can save her...i admit that im not with her all the time, im not superman but as much as possible i will be...

a very long weekend...ahihihihi

2005-11-22T03:08:00.000+08:00

its been a while since i made my last post in my blog....and i would like to summarize it in a two part entry on my blog...ahihihihi...let's start my story last week

townhall monday ( 14/11 )

we are all dressed-up for the townhall at hotel intercon, but last year was still the best townhall...and it is now traditional for the manila office on every townhall to have an entertainment portion..hehehehe...cyempre we have the thomson one voice chorale that rendered a song...boggs ok ung song nyo ng manila kaso my sumablay e pro twas good pa din kahit na lam ko na madame kau sacrifices for that...and also my dance troupe na din ang thomson...and c nancy ok ung tribal dance nya kala ko nga e native na ifugao cya e...joke lang nancy ha...hehehehehe...i was not able to be part of the chorale for this townhall due to sked e...hehehe...honestly d ko kaya na magvoice lesson tapos kulang ka sa tulog un na ung d healthy e ccrain mo na ung health mo pati ung boses mo pagganun...the food was not that good e...sana ginawa na lang gabi ung townhall para nakainom cla ej ng mga cocktail drinks...hehehehe..

starbucks planner and the watch ( 16/11 )

finally i had completed na ung 1st starbucks planner ko just in time as an additional gift for my mom...my sister was the one who bought the gift kc e and i just add ung planner...and also i ask for the assistance of rach to help me buy a watch...actually it was overdue na nga ung watch na un kc parating na ung sister ko e yoko pa naman malaman nila na im spending so much for myself kc ako kc all-out spending kc ako sa kanila e...i shopped my sister and my mom...i spoiled my brother on toys he want and kung magspend man ako sa sarili ko gusto ko d nila alam, wala lang kc ang gusto ko kc lahat mabigay sa kanila ung gusto nila just like when i was a kid...im just returning the favor to my lovely mom and spoiling my siblings as much as i can...hehehehe..corny noh...i bought a fossil watch kc ung watch na ginagamit ko before e i have returned it to my dad na...im so thankful to rach talaga kc kahit pano e mejo ok naman ung watch na nakuha and cyempre i ask for her assistance kc ung negotiating power nya and best buy naman ung nakuha ko na watch e...kung ung sister ko kasama ko cguro baka nabili ko din ung kapartner ng watch ko and charming ung sister ko pro she dont use her charm wen buying things ayaw nya yata magkaroon ng bargaining power e...hehehehe..

my mom's 20th bday...hehehe..

yes you heard it right 20th bday...hehehe.. no my mom is already 56 and she looks very young at her age...still pretty and very lovely mom...she is the most beautiful girl i had ever saw in my entire existence of my life...mama's boy na mama's boy noh...i love giving my mom compliments kc e...i even texts her with a mwah which she also saw on my phone when i text mae before...hehehehe...as expected i was late on her bday..i arrived past lunch na coz hinde naman me sinundo e commute lang e...so un i hurry my gift to be wrapped na and we had dinner den...mejo bihira na din na tumabi me sa mama ko matulog kaya natulog me sa master's bedroom with my brother cyempre kc d naman papatalo un e seloso din kc un e...hehehehe...mejo special ung day na un para sakin...kc i have rest since nagnayt shift me, mejo naka rest na and i have spent na din ung bday celebration ng mom ko na kasama me...as far as i remember e since high school ko pa nakapunta sa bday nya e...since nung nagcollege me e puro text and call lang ung greetings ko sa kanya...now i had the oppurtunity to spend her special day na kasama na me...i love my mom so much...

harry potter and the goblet of fire 19/11

we watch harry potter's 4th film with my mom and my sister...my brother cant join us kc my saturday class pa cya...so sad for him...hehehe...i saw my ex at the cinema and i remember something cguro i will write it na lang next time...the movie was great better than the previous one and the best potter movie so far to grace the silver screen...hay naku mejo mahaba na ung napost ko tom na lang ulit para mabasa muna to...sometimes kc pagnagpopost kc me e natatabunan na ung 1st na pinost ko...hehehe...somehow i feel good na and recharge...ahihihihi...

starbucks part 2

2005-11-10T03:26:00.000+08:00

it seems that it was only yesterday when i dreamt of that starbucks body bag and look at now after having the bag im craving to have that planner...maybe because it was frustration of last year to have a planner for myself...i had manage to have the planner for my sister but unfortunately she lost it...now im working to have a planner for my sister, my mom, my brother and myself ( family affair isn't it..ahihihihi )...and if there still enough money and time maybe to good friends also...hehehehe....its like the same just as the body bag of starbucks and good thing is caffeine has a positive effect on the nightshift to stay awake on work...my sister will be here for her cpa review maybe as early as 19...i guess the harry potter movie watching will be spent at lucena because my mom is celebrating her 20th birthday on the 17th and im planning to take a leave on the 17-18 coz im planning to be with her on her birthday...its been 5 or 6 yrs that i only greet her through text and call and i want to be with her on her special day...i love my mom so much than any girl in this world ( kahit naman nung my gf me e....tsk...tsk...tsk...mama's boy talaga )...the new panday soap is good but nothing beats FPJ on it c Flavio pa din ung Panday ko but the new one is worth watching naman e...d naman nagkakalayo ung face namen ni jericho rosales, iisa lang naman kc ung hulmahan ng mukha namen...oo na i admit mas guwapo samen c FPJ cyempre tisoy un kastilaloy e...well back to the starbucks thinggy, ive got my planner card since nov. 4 and since that day i have 8 stickers na!!!...amazing db?! ahihihihi...imagine the promo just started on the 4th and now its 10th na and i have 8 stickers na which i almost having coffee everyday!!!...well its just that im lucky on this week, since monday we start to have the coffe habit and last tuesday sir tony treat us sa starbucks, sayang nga 5 kame natreat kaso ive got only 2 stickers coz i give way to others naman and take note the treat was not just the coffee it also comes with pastry, o db astig!!!...im expecting to have more stickers and starbucks treat to come...hehehehe...coz i have to collect 21 just to have the planner...=)

being superman

2005-10-20T03:09:00.000+08:00

being superman is not a joke....you must have high treshold for pain...enduring all the sufferings you could bear....selfless thinking and always on call.....how much more could i give if i myself has almost nothing to give....what more can someone gain from me if i myself has been broken and shattered into pieces that im almost non-existent at all....where do we go from nowhere, were all of us is at lost and still losing hope and faith....when we should learn that if we give we should expect something in return....whom i should trust if i myself cant trust my heart, that everytime i hear her name part of myself drives crazy, that my heart is a traitor on my feelings that it always betrays me to the point that i cant help on falling again...i know being with me cant gain too much, sacrificing is also needed, understanding and patience will alsways require....i may not be a perfect catch but as far as i know i become worthy to be with...i try to become superman even to the point that i think i am...but reality always hit that i have weakness because im human, i care and love....no matter how hard i try...no matter how though i bear it....no matter how difficult i overcame...maybe this is the way it should be that i should love you in silence, because in silence i found no rejection....

superman II

2005-10-18T03:32:00.000+08:00

I am superman....the man of steel...faster than the speeding bullet.....journalist / reporter of the daily planet....the last son of the planet kripton....my kripton name is kal-el ( hope i got the spelling and name right...hehhehe )....im not a bird, not a plane...i am superman.....of all the superheroes i admire y do i like being superman?....well maybe because of his super skills and abilities....or maybe the colorful costume he wears everytime he saves the world....or maybe i also like to get into complicated situations ( trying to be superman talaga oh...tsk...tsk..tsk..) and maybe i have the fantasy of saving the world or to be exact trying to solved things on my own way even to the point that im hurting myself and im almsot being destroyed....trying to take the pain that is meant for others, taking the risks that would bear nothing but sufferings....sacrificing for others hapiness when you are right here struggling into vastness of nowhere to run....bearing the pain that you try to share with so that she may feel that i love her so much....holding on in a single strand of hope that even i myself dont know where it leads to....trying to secure her inspite of odds and adversities that we had.....trying to protect her from harm that even i myself is trying to be her shield...if i could be superman.....

superman

2005-10-13T03:21:00.000+08:00

y do clark kent and lana lang cannot be a couple....even clark and lois lane did not end up to be together.....it is because clark is busy saving the world...he sacrifices a lot for others goodness sake....he makes a choice and his choice is a noble one....call him a loser in love but great in mankind because he love more people not only a single person....it is also good that superman has no girlfriend at all because the unfortunate girl he will be loved will also suffer if his enemies have known the identity of his significant other....such a BS isnt it but its true....its not that he dont love his SO its because he love him so much he is willing to protect him and be away from trouble....
y do i post this crap?! well its nothing, not important at all just an insight.....='(

healing process

2005-10-06T04:36:00.000+08:00

things will not be the same as it used to be....but it is better to be this way than to be hurt at all...things will not always be on your way no matter how hard you try and change it according to your will...learning from it is a great learning process sometimes it is a test for us, so that on the next relationship you will not do the same mistake you have already done...healing process may not come easy but as far as i know it depends on how much emotional investment you give on the relationship....( i was surprise that this term - emotional investment - was also being used by jarsen in one of our heart-to-heart talk...hehehehe funny i thought im the only one using it )...the more you invest the more you will be hurt if you part ways...well it must be that way because after all if you dont your just making fun of the relationship....oh boy why do i write this way...well i dont know, maybe its just that im in a healing process right now...accepting the things around me and learing to be the best man i could be...trying to learn and discover things that i want to know and most of all im not hurrying things up....still undecided of what my future will be, i hope priesthood is my path, not for my greater glory or what but to be at peace with myself and the world that have been bad and good to me....

nakatutok 24 oras

2005-10-01T04:24:00.000+08:00

you know the tv series 24 well parang ganun ung situation ko this week....astig noh i stay in the office last wed yata un till lunch and take note ung regular lunch namen kc sa opis e mga 1:30-2:00 pm kaya pro buti naman we had our luch at around 1:15 much earlier db...so sweet talaga nila aga magluch for me.. hehehehee...i arrived at home around mga 3pm na and natulog na...then friday naman astig din sumama ko sa pagbili ng gift sa mga october celebrants ung 1st half kc meron pag magcecelebrate sa later week of october e....hehehehe i also do some window shop dat time...i went home na din mga around 4 pm...hay naku grabe talaga...parang 24 oras " nakatutok 24 oras "...ahihihihihihihihi....d na ko magtataka kung magkakasakit na ko neto...hehehe...mejo masama na din pakiramdam ko tapos mya mya lang uwe na ko sa lucena kc sobrang miss ko na cla mama e...malamang nakatutok na naman ako mya pag-uwe ko...24 oras...hehehehe...or maybe 24 season 3 na ung drama ko mya...d naman cguro kc nakakatulog pa naman ako e...somehow happy pa din me kesa sa dati kc im almost over na...unlike before but as i have said in my previous post yoko na muna d ko na cya hahanapin kc paghinanap mo baka lalo magtago e....hehehehe...pati hinde pwede kc ako c superman kelangan kong ilagtas ang mundo...yoko ng mapagod c clark e...hehehehe...

hopeful!!!

2005-09-24T13:27:00.000+08:00

im feeling ok right now....hope this is the start of the same of old me the usual before when my life still revolves around me and those people that i love from the start....the bad thing is that people that i have deal with before were now gone or out of life because of certain decisions that i've made...i dont know if i regret it but one thing is for sure its time for me to move on....and there are people who comes in life, things may go but still there are things that will come...im glad that there are people who stay with me and there are people whom i met and bond with...now im not afraid of anymore..i hope so, because im in the process of moving on...good things that this time comes were my sister will stay with me this november so she will not notice the changes happened to me...as of now i dont say no to lovelife but i will not seek for it because i have to be focused as a more matured person...i will just think that i have to be strong for everyone...but if she finds me then she is lucky ( so do i...hehehe )...hopefully this will be start of reviving the old new me before...So help me GOD...=)

lately!!!!

2005-09-23T05:13:00.000+08:00

lately im not thinking properly....i dont know why....maybe there is something that bothers me a lot....i dunno if it is because of christmas is near or just crisis that im now feeling through....or maybe still the fear of uncertainty, fear of losing and letting go....or maybe the nightshift trauma that im been having right now....im been thinking lately of outrageous things and entertaining it in my mind....oh damn this life, i dunno how hard it would gets as time goes by....maybe im not just thinking properly thats it...oh life, can't get any better....hay i have just write this stuff just to have an entry on my blog and maybe to also express how i feel lately....im still not in the mood to post on my blog yet but then again i just think it would still be best if you still express some part of your emotions that you feel right now....honestly i feel different and i feel too much emotions or maybe mixed emotions this past few months....uncertainty, well-planned future, loneliness, disappoinment, personal grief and family problems and problems that somehow you have to face and handle and personal problems and uncertain dillema....well somehow this blog serves as a shock absorber for me...i miss so many people right now those whom i gain comfort, strength and inspirations....hay i love to write on so many things but im not feeling well...i love to write bout my sister which will i call the babysitter's diary...hehehehehehehe..somehow if time permits...have not finished thomson code of conduct yet...ahihihihihi....

my little big sister

2005-09-13T05:28:00.000+08:00

my sister is here and as of now im a babysit her till friday...( boy cant wait for friday to come )...my sister drives me crazy every time she ask about something...actually im prepared for it but my budget for the whole month was ruined because of her...im not mad or anything, im happy that im the one who's taking care of her....basta i have so many stories about her na sobrang out of this world lagi ung reaction ko or should I say paranoid?!....hahahaha...paranoia keeps me insane for this past weekend and I always keep my sister's cool kc sometimes mejo moody cya e....it makes my sked of the ryhtm and my sleeping habits uncomfortable....but still i love her doing things for her, its once in a lifetime na magplay me na babysit sa little big sister ko....hehehehe...=)

a family reunion

2005-08-30T15:13:00.000+08:00

last sat. was a family reunion on my mother's side ( avena family )...twas fun to see again my lola's, tita's and relatives that i have not seen for a year they were in the states na kc e....one thing that light up my sat. morning was an appreciation of my lola ( which we fondly called tita au ) that i look like my lolo and she likes my bald hair which she saw my younger lolo back in their days through me....i always wanted to be known as an Avena and not my dad's surname...maybe hatred with my dad?! maybe...its just that i appreciate more of my mom's relatives more kc e...after my shift here in the ofis at around 6:15 i immediately went to our apartment to catch up our sundo to Bulacan...my mom's dad is a Bulakenyo eh, so kahit mejo walang tulog at antok pa ko e nagshower lang me den umalis na kame paBulacan...im with my cousin and my tita and tito ( my mom's siblings )...i just hate d beso - beso part which all of my tito, tita and lolas and also my cousin that we would make mano and beso-beso them...i was still always asked if were do i study, and always tell them dat i have finished my bachelor's degree....maybe i still look like a college student....hhehehehehe...i cant think much more na kc i still do lack sleep, but i had a good weekend with the family reunion even if i lack sleep i know its worhty kc naman e...and i guess my lolas is getting older and older na e i just do pray that they will stay with us longer....im so sleepy na makapagmilo nga ng magising....hehehehe....

my night life

2005-08-17T05:47:00.000+08:00

oh boy....its so hard to adjust in my new sked....im now on a night shift sked on my work and so far, so good...hehehe...hirap mag-adjust grabe as in...mejo masaya na malungkot...nakakamiss, bawal mag-ingay at mangulit....ewan ko ba pro somehow parang d worth ung pagnayt shift ko...sana nga d to forever....hehehehe....sobrang pagod na pagod na me e.....miss ko na mama ko...gusto ko na ulit magleave!!!!.......hehehehe....=)

somehow

2005-08-09T18:45:00.000+08:00

things are meant to change...even without knowing it....somehow you have an idea dat things will not go on your way but you still try to work things out...as much as possible you will try to be it on your way...i just somehow nakaluwag luwag sa work load...thanks GOD wala na c Lehman and GBI sa workload ko coz im preparing for my night shift task sana tuloy na sa aug. 15 ung nayt shift namen...im looking forward to it para maiba naman...hehehe...this day lang me nakapag upd8 ng blog ko...actually im thinking pa nga if my mga significant na ngyari sakin e...hehehe...somehow im on a good vibes these past few days....positive vibration ika nga ng mga rastah hehehehe...i know hinde pa tapos ung mga trying times ko pero sana watever happens sana GOD give me the wisdom to accept things going to happen...i know it's tough but i have to...till here and i miss blogging...

holdap...

2005-07-23T18:35:00.000+08:00

its been ages since i view this blog...actually naholdap me this day e...it was so memorable nga e kc dennis and i were long planned to have a gimik at xaymaca and we did it on this day and unfortunately we were hold-up...tragic noh...yoko na nga ikwento e kc nakaget over na ko sa event na un and somehow i charge it to experience na lang...almost 7 years of stay and living here in manila now lang ngyari sakin to...malas talaga oh!!!!...sa recto, mendiola o sa malate d pa sakin ngyayari to sa timog pa ko natiyempuha...bad trip talaga...pag oras mo na oras mo na talaga...my mom was super worried bout me and my dad, now ko lang nakita ung concern nya sakin...hehehe..kahit ganun pala un my care pa din cya sakin...hehehehe...just updating wat had happen on me...actually its so long overdue story na nga to kaya yoko na ielaborate pa e...hehehe...please if you find my blog na walang ok mabasa just read my prevoius post na lang po since i start this blog baka my namiss out kau na story bout me...hehehehe...

it's been a year

2005-07-22T18:26:00.000+08:00

it's been a year here in thomson that im doing production without ht e help of my trainor mark...it's been a year that i make kulit to my officemates here....hehehe...it's been a good year for me...it's been a year that i changed my password on my d.s....it's been a year ( and counting ) that im with the bond indices team ( day shift...hehehehe )...it's been a year na din pala na kasama ko si rach sa cubicle...it's been a year has past and im enjoying my stay here...it's been a year na kakulitan ko cla kuya ian and honey ( parang beda atmosphere rin nga eh...hehehe )...it's been a wonderful one year ( and counting ) stay here....

p.s. - please read my previous post sana po lahat kc baka my mga namiss out kau...just read po im updating kc my blog e...i feel its been ages for me to visit and update my blog again...hehehe...

my sister's bday

2005-07-13T18:13:00.000+08:00

today is my sister's bday and its been 2 years in a row that i miss her bday....and i miss my family so much....

one year at thomson

2005-07-12T18:18:00.000+08:00

im celebrating my one year here at thomson.......

im lost yet still calm

2005-07-02T20:48:00.000+08:00

this past few days i feel im lost but im not confuse or out...hehehehe...im still calm and not obvious of wat i feel and fear...things that i fear most is certain to happen but i hope not this soon, not this young...i want to share with her something that we dream together to grow old and yet were being tested or i cant understand things happened...things that happened so fast that you cant imagine that there would be an instant lost and the hardest part of it is you feel it...losing slowly that sometimes it hurts....i feel it even in the middle of the night that dream of it and comes to my nerves and i feel so horrible about it...im in fear but yet still come not giving up and ask ALMIGHTY GOD to give me more hope and faith...if not i ask for somehow to give me the wisdom to understand changes going to happen...yes this time im weak but yet im still armed with a tough look...but one day kathy noticed something in me ( was it thursday yata ) sadness cant lie in my eyes...despite a calm look and funny face cant hide my emotions inside me...i have to be strong like what my country is facing right now...i have to be brave but still have faith, its the only thing that keeps me sane right now...honestly these past few days i had so many sleepless nights...i hoping and hope that im still in the right path that GOD wants me to be...so be it...

july....july...

2005-07-01T14:08:00.000+08:00

i think its been ages that i havent post on my blog...hehehe...things happened so fast the year 2005 is almost half through and july is here...things happened so fast and time is so significant that i dont want to share what happened dis past few weeks...im not feeling well...physically, emotionally and mentally good thing i still keep my faith with HIM...maybe i have to share something na lang just an update on my life but will not elaborate more about it...1st is the condo dat i have been dreaming is just a dream or maybe less prioritize for this year, 2nd my sister will not be here in manila to work or should i say na sa september or last week of september pa cya will come to take her accountancy board review ( here's the catch the original plan is she will work kahit sa call center lang this april sana or may to finance her review sa october kaso my mom is thinking something more bright idea, this sep cya here sa manila to take review lessons and me ung magfifinance nun...ah galing noh...)...wala namang kaso sakin un e ang sakin lang e kahit sana last june pa nagreview cya kahit sakin ung gastos kaso my mom tell me something which is as of now i try to understand and so far nacocomprehend ko na naman e which i think na i should never argue or underestimate the wisdom of my mom...hehehe..3rd somehow i got my independence na from my parents especially from my mom pro i have to admit na mama's boy pa din me e...hehehe..i pay my own rent sa apartment and bills and my personal bills and payments and things i need which sometimes na i ask for assistance pa kahit my extra money pa me...pro they still offer help but i refused na kc naman my GOD, 23 na me tapos dependent pa din me sa kanila and somehow i know to budget better than my college days...would you believe i even have extra money to give to them..4th i think to much....i think the people around me, places and things that i see...i think the days to come and days have past...i think of my mistakes and achievements ( if i have )...i think of the girl that means so much to me, the girl that i refuse to let go, the girl that until now im hoping to get cured and know she will be fine...she is struggling on cancer and immune system weakness...her dad didnt tell her technically her health conditions and ailment all she knows is she is struggling on cancer...i have learned to care of her and understand her...if i could ask GOD a miracle for others it would be a total recovery and completely healing for the girl that i cherish...kung cguro d man NIYA mabigay sakin un e kahit ung malessen na lang ung suffering nya or sana bigay na lang NIYA sakin ung sakit ni mae...i went to a 1st friday mass at rcbc with honey...the homily of the priest leaves an inspiring word for me...a love without conditions...
"there was a soldier that fell inlove into a lovely princess...the soldier courted the princess, the soldier even tell her that the sight of her face would make his day alright...the princess make a condition that if the soldier would stay in 100 days at her balcony, the princess will love him and marry him...so the soldier stayed for days and the princess took a peek on the soldier and soldier's face would lighten-up...ten still the princess would take a peek to make sure if the soldier is there...forty....sixty and still the princess was amaze by the desire and love of the soldier...ninety the princess was excited by the soldier's courage...ninety six...ninety eight and the princess was set on to marrying the soldier and on the ninety ninth day the soldier leave the princess balcony for the war...after that the princess ask the soldier on why did he leave the balcony on 99th day, he cant wait the one day more?...the soldier replied "its not that i cant wait, the 99 days i have spent on seeking your face on the balcony, it is not a waste of time but if i fulfilled the 100 days you will love me by the condition you have set to love me..." "i still love you without conditions just as i love you before"....

L-O-V-E

2005-06-18T17:07:00.000+08:00

I just want to share one of my most favorite biblical verse and it happens to be the meaning of LOVE...

1 Corinthians 13:4-8 " LOVE is patient, LOVE is kind. It is not jealous, is not pompous, it is not inflated, it is not rude, it does not seek its own interests, it is not quick-tempered, it does not brood over injury, it does not rejoice over wrongdoing but rejoices with the truth. It bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. LOVE never fails".

the great leave

2005-06-17T17:25:00.000+08:00

it will be a great weekend for me...pete allow me to take a 3-day leave...yes!!!...rach advise me to take a leave monday to wednesday ( actually gusto ko sana till tuesday lang e )...ron's lat day will be next friday...a so sad d ko na cya makukulit...tom. i will have my 1st basketball practice ( hoping dat i will not be injured sana...)...i will be leaving manila by afternoon after the practice...still not in the mood to blog dis past few days...many things happened which i should write in my blog but i feel im not in the mood to post it talaga e...father's day na on sun but im not close to my dad maybe just have my respect on him on his special day but not as special as my mom...i have nothing to say bout my dad basta pagnagkafamily ako d ko cya gagayahin gusto close kame ng mga anak ko pati wife ko kahit nu mangyari and will be a responsible and best dad ever...actually mae and i talk na bout dat stuff ( grabe im talking bout the future na )...just a great rest this monday, go to my dentist mangulit sa mga kapatid ko maglambing sa mom ko...im planning to have time with her and my sister na ipagshop ko cla...movie watching with my sister and so much things to do which im thinking and dont want to write it na...cant wait for the great rest

just a sunday

2005-06-12T19:41:00.000+08:00

cant do nothing but to post on my blog, somehow i miss it but still not in a mode to post a more sensible write-up...i went to the province for some emergency cases on family matters hope it will be allright for us this coming days...hani has a new blog...i still cant understand the mystery of life, especially the word suffering...even if you dont feel it physically you will feel it emotionally which i for myself is most unbearable expereince...especially pagnagkasabay-sabay ung suffering sa mga mahal mu sa buhay...add to your sufferings ung personal crisis mu pa ( money, relationship, career, family and ung role na ginagapan mu sa mundong ito...)...till here na lang muna i dont want to tell more about it im still not in a blog mood e...i know mejo boring na ung blog ko and im thinking a new way to make your reading more enjoyable...i dont want to post pictures talaga po e...besides this blog still needs improvement...d na gumagana ung soundtrack ko and mejo kulang pa sa mga kaeklatan ung blog para mas enjoyable basahin kc mukhang madami na ung nagvivisit ng blog ko e...in days to come der will be changes in my blog ( some additional antics and stuff like dat ) and d way i will write some post on my blog so you better watch out and better not cry...hehehehe...

june has come

2005-06-03T19:29:00.000+08:00

im still not in a mode to post on my blog...dont know wat hit me but i feel strange dis past few days...i sense something dat uncertain which makes me so much afraid of the days to come...june has come and im glad dat half of this year was spent with good memories to think and blessings to thank with...my cousin has moved out in our flat which makes me and my aunt staying on our 4 year flat...my sister will be here in manila anytime of june and will face the real world dat has to offer to here ( another headache to deal with and to protect with )...since d lastpost that i have many things happen in my life...significant and some create an impact on my life and also to my maturity...i still dont want to write it down but i guess i have to let go of it...express to lessen the pressure and have an outlet of it...thanks for this blog i could write all wat i want and tell something...this past week i made a promise, a promise dat i cant understand y i did it...im struggling as of now im not in fear about my future but the uncertain things dat will happen and i know it is a worse situation in which i will be in grief...im not confuse, i have made a choice and standing by it, getting the chances dat comes my way, hoping for the best yet still in fear for the worse...mae and i are in a situation in which were not a couple yet still a lover somehow...the only difference is were starting a new realtionship dat we both hoping to last forever...we are in best friend situations with romantic touch...its d way i plan to start and be friends so dat if were going to start again we have much more foundation in our realtionship but not my decision to become friends ( its her decision to start all over again )...i cant write anymore about her and our relationship bcoz still i cant share my emotions i feel right now...somehow im happy the way it is going ryt now and still searching the reason on many things she had share with me...she made me promised not to pursue priesthood ( just few of the many promises we shared and i made )...i dont know how to deal the way i feel ryt now and the fear that i sense is somehow becoming strong and the clouds of uncertainty makes me fear more...i hope im wrong...i ask for everyone who reads my blog to PLEASE PRAY FOR MAE for her health...PLEASE I BEG FOR YOUR PRAYERS...thank you!!! it will be a great help not only for me but for others who loves dis girl so much...

losing the passion?????

2005-05-29T16:48:00.000+08:00

maybe many of u are worried y i dont post new entries on my blog for this week?...busy?...somehow but not dat much...the reason behind is dat i want to reflect on my self this time...were back again as a couple which i expect but not too soon...i just want to have an inner peace in myself...you think i would write bout my wikend, my work load or any topic dat i usually post...you tot i would write about our balikan mushyness stuff?...no i just write wat i feel i want to...as of now i want to find for myself...dis past few months im struggling and things happen so fast dat i couldn't imagine dat i was at a lost at certain point in time...dat im beginning to feel dat im being hurt a lot ( no not only brought by the break-up, its just dat many things happened )...im not confused as a matter of fact i know wats happening to me but sometimes you see it and your helpless how to deal it...im just worried for my self, for people dat i know, for people dat i cherish and love...im bothered, so much dat i even dont know wat bothers me ( gulo noh pro totoo 'to )...im fearing something dat somehow i know but i cant define...is this because i think too much or im just afraid of losing something and i dont understand and know wat will be...one thing for sure, im afraid of things dat uncertain...things dat happen in an instant and i fear of being helpless...im not losing the passion to post on my blog i just want a certain piece of peace of mind to understand things around me...to be more positive in this life

a long weekend...

2005-05-23T14:20:00.000+08:00

this weekend was a great one...i had a long weekend which started last thursday with a star wars movie viewing...i was in lucena dis friday till sunday...my sister told me na sa sat na lang manuod...so i went to my dentist and afterwards i have a good ciesta...sat. come and my siblings were excited to see the star wars last series...my brother was excited to see chewbaca which he was referring na tatay ng mga ewoks...hehehehe...my sister even understand the movie and somehow appreciate it...well for me kc ok ung movie we were not a star wars fanatic but we understand it somehow kc we have watch the episode from 1-6 except from my brother kc i have to tell him pa ung mga ngyari last episodes pa...it was fun although my mom was not with us kc my miting cya...on sunday sinabi ko na k mama ung terms of payment dun sa condo na gusto ko kunin...mejo positive naman cya bout dun sa having a condo kaso kc samen pag my ginusto ka dapat kaw ung kumuha nun my tulong pero hindi lahat so ibig sabihin she is worry about me working hard and not saving myself...sabi ko ok lang sakin un pro still im not yet made up my mind so far...gusto ko kunin kaso napaisip kc ako sa sinabi ni mama e...tapos ayun she is still asking for reasons y i will be on the nayt shift kala ko nga matutuwa cya sa dami ng mga reasonos kaso sabi pa din nya na so unreasonable of it daw...sabi pa nya na para daw akong nagmamadali and beside kaya pa naman daw nila ako na buhayin e...i listen to them and the good about it is that nasakin pa din ung choice and decision ( my GOD do i sound mature na b?...hehehe )...im starting my week with a postive atitude dat i know i will be bless and taking my day one at a time thinking for the future but savoring the moment...reminisce the past yet hopeful for tomorrow for i am going to be the best man i could be...i remember that master yoda said fear not of losing because death is a natural thing, train yourself to let go...ahhhh i wish i could...=)

star wars...

2005-05-18T15:58:00.000+08:00

im not in my writing mood dis past few days, even the way i wrote about my previous post minsan pansin ko walang buhay even to the point na wala ng sense basta makwento lang ayos na un...bakit kaya?...actually i dont know...but i know and for sure dat my wikend will be a great one...pete approved my leave for tom and fri...( movie leave ito...hehehehe...)...im going to watch the star wars's last series ( im hoping na sana meron pa sunod ) tomorow and on friday with my mom, sister and brother...im not a fanatic of this movie but i love and somehow i understand the star wars series...this was the first movie i saw on betamax pa yata or vhs na sa bahay with my family pati na din cousins ko...then we also watch the trilogy na mas pinaganda ni george lucas sa sinehan na...sabi nila pag gusto mu daw ung movie na star wars u belong to late 70's and early 80's era, well for me hinde kc i was born in 1982 and dat time napalabas na yata ung 1st movie ng star wars e... i remember wen we were watching the movie sa bahay mga grade skul pa yata ako nun my tito would always tell us sino ung character na un and pati ung story...nagustuhan ko ung movie and believe me wen i was a kid i dream of becoming a jedi knight and owning a light saber ( un nga occupation ko sa friendster ko e )....hehehehe...it was the best sci-fi movie for me and maganda ung story nya...

how my week was?.....well so far ok naman ( i know nobody cares for dat...)...im looking forward for d nayt shift i feel sad pa din kc nga iba na team ko and im going to start a new world ( hahahaha d naman cguro forever to e...)...tomorow my chance na ko makapag st.jude kc nakaleave ako cguro after ng star wars un ( damn my namimis ako pagdating sa ganitong novena )...friday i will be on lucena for a star wars movie watching ulit with my mom, sister and brother...( my sister want to watch the movie kc e with me and nakapagpareserved na yata cya ng tickets e kaya pinagleave nya ko ) den sa wikend go tot the dentist for my check-up and a great rest...kausapin ko na din c mama bout dun sa condo na nagustuhan ko para makapagpareserve na ko for dat...

....im still thinking about her...honestly i could win her back but not now muna cguro i should give her time and space for it...so far she's doing fine and somehow shes on a curing stage na positive na ung outlook sa life which is good for her and im happy for dat development and for her...she always know dat im still here still and madly waiting for her...( and the star wars movie for tomorow was originally plan na kame ung magkasama if kung kame pa din till now dapat nga mamya e we will watch it na ung advance screening ng 10 pm e )...im not rushing things for us to be together again gusto ko if this would be my one last try for us it would be the best a relationship worth for keeps and forever...she gave me so many chances in the past when i was still in college and for me i give all my best to that and always save this relationship...for me if i will start to the basic i will gladly do it for her and this time kung kelangan ko manligaw kahit d ako marunong e gagawin for her...yes i still do cling for her...but as wat i have said nasa kanya pa din un pro somehow i have to move on to the past para if ever we have a brand new start nga ( hay sana nga po Dear GOD )...in GOD's good grace and will may it be...=)

just had a funny weekend...

2005-05-16T17:16:00.000+08:00

had a good weekend...lets start my adventure last friday - i tot im going to hang around at xaymaca but kathy, marlon and jess were so persistent to tag along with them to a drinking session at Solace ( hope i got the spelling of the bar rayt )...after of thinking twice i stayed na for good with them and listen to a good band...somehow mejo naiba friday nayt ko d na reggae but somehow ok naman cya...dennis came i tot drawing nga cya e...d drinking session lasted for past 3 am na ng sat...d ako umuwi ng provins kahit na fiesta sa lucban and pwede kame mamiyesta pro i choose to rest muna d2 sa manila...sat - i went dun sa condo na tinitingnan ko ( finally nagkatime na ko para makita cya and mag-inquiren )...sana makuha ko na ung condo na un mejo ok naman e...den after nun e i went to office just to chill out and pumunta sa nike sale...pro nagwork muna ako ng konti para sa monday e mejo maluwag na work load ko before pumunta sa nike sale and umuwi na...naabutan pa ko nila boggs and rach d2 sa opis and niyaya nila ako mag sm megamall astig talaga trip nitong dalwa...so b4 kame pumunta sa megamall e nagpasama na ko sa nike sale at rufino tower...astig nga ung nabili ko na shoes e...kala ko babalik pa kame ng opis pro hinde na daw kc late na masyado e so daladala ko hangang sa megamall ung shoes ( kaasar talaga to )...den sa megamall e kumain kame sa mcdo and after nun e nagbowling kame sins c rach e my discount card...ok ung bowling parang warm-up sa thomson bowling tournament ( sana makasali na ko kc kala ko shadow bowling pa din talaga ung game e )...after nun e dapat sana e magvivideoking kame nila boggs kaso wala na sa oras kaya d na nakahabol...so nagsine na lang kame...and we watch the wedding date...ok ung movie nakakaaliw and funny cya...i just take a rest on sunday nag-isip isip ako ng konti...i had a dream last sunday and in my dream andun c fr. gerard ng beda grabe dun sa conversation namen e wala naman scenario na nasa loob ako basta simpleng hi and kumustahan lang tapos e nasegway sa sinabi nyang cno ba ung mga kaclose mu na mga dom ( mga seminarista or monks din ) sa beda so sabi ko c dom max and dom lorenzo pa lang ung kilala ko sins nung college ako den biglang natapos na...hay naku my meaning kaya un sana wala or kung anu man un yoko muna malaman...madame pa ko plano sa family ko and besides i dont want to hype the idea na magpapari ako...gusto ko kasi papasok ako ng ok ako ung calling is loud and clear...as of now vague pa e o kaya baka dinadial pa lang ni GOD ung name ko sa list nya...actually all of us have calling to serve nasa satin un kung sasagutin natin or reject the call...dun nga sa mga my calling e konti pa din ung mapipili..."many are called but few were chosen"...

decisions....decisions....decision...

2005-05-13T20:24:00.000+08:00

i feel like its been ages for me to post again in my blog....and i feel dat dis past few days sins las wik b4 d mothers day many things happened...in just a snap of a finger things will be change by decisions dat we made and choose...lets me tell you about the meeting happened last may 4 it was a wednesday and a monthly meeting of the fixed income and bond indices...pete our team manager for both teams tell us about reorganization on our teams...aids will be our new team member in the bond indices, andrew will be on the grave yard shift of the bond indices for the new market for our team and also this day i decided to be a fixed income of the night shift ( actually i didnt insist it d decision is still in my team mates if they will let me go and i thank them that they let me go...honestly mel i was also sad to leave in our team ) y do i decided to be in the night shift there are many reasons for that and maybe not the right for me to tell it...i dont like to comment on the reorganization as much as possible i want this write - up to be more of a personal...boggs was sad because he was not chosen to be in the night shift in fixed income...actually the opening for the night shift was 2 fixed income and 1 bond indices...but we andrew and i tot it was 2 for each teams so dats y andrew and i volunteer for the bond indices for the 2 slot and voila! it was decided na 1 na lang kaya ganun...im sad to leave my team and my teamm8s but i guess i have to for many reasons ( maybe financial...i will be a hypocrite if i dont admit it but its just 1 of d many reasons of it...career? maybe?...to have time to pursue the mba?...maybe?..basta dami reasons )...im a person who always try to see things d positive and negative impact of a decisions...i will not decide if im just the only person who will gain in my decision as much as possible i would like my decision especially in work to be a professional ( meaning ok sa team and sa kin )...the night shift has no definite date when it will start maybe june...so our team is looking for a replacement for me and the fixed income is looking for aid's replacement and a night shift..i want to write this sins last pa talaga kaso pano?...kahit ako mejo d ko lam kung panu ko gagawin e?!...mejo dis post nga e nadisclose ung part about the team e...as of now im still in shock of my decision but it's expected but not as a fixed income ( wala po akong sama ng loob sa fixed income or kung anu man baka kc mamisinterpret e...basta i was just surprise by my own decision )...as of now d pa din magsink in sakin e...all i know is night shift ako kaso d n ko bond indices...as nilo had comment this was my first team in thomson e...(hmmm bakit kaya?...)...i mean ito ung nakamulatan ko na team and ok naman kame...baka madelete ko pa nga tong post na to e...i just express dat im still in shock in my decision...but still its a decision i made and i stand by it as long as my teamm8's had its blessings.....love you guys kahit mejo loko-loko ako sa team pro kahit panu naging ok naman ako db?...i just look my decision in a way na oppurtunity and challenge for me in a new work...naka naman nagawa ko talagang positive ung sadness na nadarama ko noh?!...sana sa bond indices pa din ako nakaupo kahit night shift na ko...sana ok ung makakashare ko na pc...sana ok ung work na ibibigay...basta ako im preparing myself for the challenge...

my mother's day

2005-05-08T15:46:00.000+08:00

it was a sunny and hot sunday in lucena...it's mother's day today and im happy dat im here with my mom spending the special day for her...i love my mom so much dat she is the first girl in my life...we hear mass in the morning and my mom and my brother went home after the mass we told our mom dat my sister and i will do the grocery after mass..afer the mass my sister and i went to the grocery in SM lucena ( elsa would pronounce it eys-eym hehehe and my sister would always imitate it hahahaha )...after the grocery we went to buy a dozen of roses for her and i texted my brother if he prepare the orchids dat we neknok to our grandma's house ( my grandmother's sister )...we also buy chocolate cake with a happy mother's day text on the cake ( i forgot the flavor of the cake because i tell my sister na kahit anung cake basta wag lang chocolate mousse sawa na tau dun kc e baka d na kainin ni mama pag un and besides my sister knows the flavor at red ribbon e ) and an ice cream...lunch time has come and we give our roses and orchids to my mom den we had dessert of ice cream and cake my mom was so touch and almost cry... i tell her my plans dat on their 25th wedding anniversary which will be next year e baka we spend it sa boracay or hong kong cyempre sana treat ko...hehehe...my mom and dad celebrated their 24th anniv last april 19 ( read: 1 year and 11 days after my bdate astig noh )...so ako ung measurement ng wedding anniv nila kc pagnagbday ako add 1 lang ng age ko e un ung tagal ng years ng wedding nila...i spent my sat and sunday ciesta ( afternoon nap ) with my mom, i slept with her magkatabi kame matulog...well d na iba un everytime na nasa provins ako lagi ko katabi c mama matulog e...minsan kaming DALWA ng brother ko e katabi nya matulog kahit sa gabi...i just use my room for keeping my clothes hehehehehehe...i love my mom so much...she keeps me sane in this crazy world dat i have...although my mga secrets na ko sa kanya alam ko naman na alam na nya un e and she just wait me to tell her kc she knows dat i wont tell a lie on her and i will still seek her advice...my mom is my source of strength, inspiration, hope and the reason why i became a good son...mama i will always be a good kuya to my siblings and a best person dat you bring in this world...Happy Mother's Day and I Love You...so much...=)

my mae in may

2005-05-05T16:55:00.000+08:00

it would be the first time to tell something about her...i dont know if it would be the first of series of post and write-ups about her or the first and last that i would post about her...our future is uncertain...her full name is Princess Shekinah Angelica Maica Montemayor haba noh ako din i was surpise wen she tell me her name...she has so many nicknames din mae, princess, angel, maica, sam, shekinah and etc...but close persons to her usually call her mae ( her parents, relatives and me )...how we meet?...she is 1st year college in UST and im 3rd year college at San Beda...her course a freshman taking up Interior Design ( CFAD )...me business management...we meet at UST i was single for almost a year and a half wen i saw her and at that time i was so serious in my studies dat i forgot to be serious in my lovelife ( nakanaman!!! )...i was single by choice and afraid of commitment too at dat time...she is tall, long black and shiny hair, red and kissable lips, a chinita eyes, mejo mestiza din cya amputi, and slim and sexy po cya...tuloy ko pa kaya to bout her baka kc d ko na matapos e...actually i dont know wat will write bout her?...wat will i tell bout her?...how i will write bout her?...and so many questions kip bugging on my head ryt now...will i finish this post bout her?...im having second tots since i start and think bout doing dis thing...a sweet, caring, friendly, jolly, cheerful, strong, intelligent, gorgeous and loving girl...( actually madami pa mga adjectives to describe her baka pagnasulat ko d2 e maubusan ng space and cguro mas ok na muna tong mga words na to enough to describe her and know her i want to protect her naman and kip her privacy also )...it was month of feb. of 2002 wen i first saw the girl dat i will love ( and still do love (?)..) at UST an organization event and common friend introduce us to each other...dat time she said i was so snobbish ( dito ko pala cya nahuli at nagkainteres sakin...hehehe ) d nya alam na super mahiyain talaga ko...( e way back college e payat pa ko and mejo maayos naman ung porma kahit panu )...madami nakapansin na snob daw ako sa event na un my naangasan sakin, mae's friend even said to me na kaw ha inis-snob mu beauty ni mae e dame boylets ung nakapila jan...lam ko naman e kaya nga iwas na ko kc lam ko wala ko chance...suntok sa buwan talaga ung pangarap ko pag-iniisip ko na cya ung gf ko...pro d ko nga lam kung nanligaw ako sa kanya kc d talaga ako marunong manligaw e ( honestly totoo un i dont want to sound na mayabang o kung anu man sobrang swerte ko lang talaga )...her suitors?...mga classm8 nya, player at mga guwapo sa UST, meron pa nga taga Ateneo, LaSalle pati nga tagaBeda nanliligaw sa kanya mga guwapo at mestizo...i remember my 1st conversation with her is goes like this: ( i dont know the exact words we say dat time pro parang ganito ung conversation namen...mejo dominant nga cya dat time kc mataray dating nya pro cyempre prity pa din cya and cool..)
Mae: suplado ka ba talaga?
Me: hinde po mahiyain lang talaga...
Mae: ah...ganun!
Me: opo...galit ka?
Mae: uhm mejo...
Me: bakit?...
Mae: ah wala...naartehan ka ba sakin?!...
Me: hinde po nagagandahan nga ko sau e...totoo un ha...
Mae: bolero ka pala...pati wag ka na magpopo hinde bagay sau e...parang suplado ung dating mo pro ang bait bait mu pagnakausap ka na..
Me: mahiyain po ako hinde bolero at hinde naman ako marunong magsinungaling pag nagaapreciate ng kagandahan e...lam ko naman na hinde ako ung 1st na nagsabi nyan sau e tama b?
Mae:ayos ka ha!
Me: uy sige po tawag na ko nila e...kelangan na yata ako...can i get ur cell number mya after nung activity natin?..please...
Mae: sige tawag na din yata ako e...
Me: thanks po ha..
After that talk and i have her number na d ko na tinigilan sa text at tawag cya...month of march nya me cnagot and dat time i know her na, mejo mabilis pro we still get to know about ourselves, our similarities and indifferences and many things dat we talk about...i have to admit in the first 2 months of our relationship andun pa din ung immaturity ko...we last for three years and i have to admit dat in the latter part we have an on and off relationship...now were on our separate lives she is fighting to be cure and survive her illnes while im still here for here praying and somehow giving her strength by giving my faith and strong believe on GOD...i want to cry ryt now the tot of her just makes me cry...i have to be brave for the future and somehow still dream dat we still be together pro kung hinde man sana happy cya and gumaling cya sa ganung way e ok na ko n makita ko cya na masaya and maayos...ok lang kahit nahihirapan ako at leat ako lang ( sana nga ako lang )...mahirap pala magmove-on pag ganito ung situation...i feel na unfinished pa ung love story namen ung hinde pa close book na pwede kalimutan...time could only tell if im ok as of now ayos naman ako but not somehow ok...ang gulo noh...buti na lang im good in hiding my emotions ( i learned this wen mae's dad and aunt tell me na wag ko pakita na nasasaktan ako or nalulungkot dapat laging masaya )...mahaba na tong post ko bout her pro d pa din kumpleto or kahit 1/4 ng story e d umabot...i will think if im going to post about her again...

the plan.....

2005-05-02T15:19:00.000+08:00

cguro magiging tradition ko na d2 sa blog na to ung ikwento ung weekend ko...well lets start sa friday - it was a movie day for the lekats kahit d masyado kumpleto ung tropa ayos pa din...we watch can dis be love ( hay ganda talaga ni sandara..)...magkatabi kame ni boggs ( buti na lang kc kung cla dianne katabi ko baka maiyak kagad ko nakakahiya un...hehehe)...actually i was hesitant to watch the movie for many reasons..were goin to watch din can dis be love sa sat with my mom, sister and brother...another is as much as possible iwas muna me sa mga mushy flicks like dat or any romantic movie kc u know naman baka mareremember e cant help to cry ako pag ganun...and many more reasons pro napapayag din ( kala ko nga libre kaso to c boggs e hati pa kame sa free na ticket hay naku talaga..)...sins 1st time ko makakasama cla sa panunuod ng sine e sumama na din ako sayang moment e...o nelo baka maiyak ka ulit ha kc malay mu ung iba lumipat o umalis nasa thomson d ko man lang nakasama mauod ng sine...hehehe...magkatabi kame ni boggs kala ko talaga d ko iiyak sa movie na un kaso to c boggs e nauna umiyak kaya napasunod nako at eto pa malupit gusto ko sana humagulgol ng makita ko ung parang scrap book sa last part ng movie hay naku ( gumawa kc cya ng ganun e mga memorabilia, souvenirs, pictures etc..huhuhuhu...pinatago ko nga sa sister ko un e...)..sobrang hirap pala kahit d mejo maganda ung movie e tinamaan ako kahit panu kc naman e ( hay naku ulit kelan ba ko totally magmomove on in her )...den after ng movie e nagxaymaca na ko somehow un ung nakarelax after d pressure deadline on d Lehman project ( thank GOD we finish it and so far wala pa nakikita na error sana wala )...same old reggae band dat somehow nagsasawa na din ( d naman masyado cguro kelangan lang maghanap ng iba...hehehe )..but still reggae rocks!!! este rules pala hehehe...after dat pampagising sa starbaks west...in a few hours uwi na ko sa lucena...sat comes and im at lucena na visit my dentist and after dat movie ulit and guess wat can dis b love ulit...hay naku nanaman pro d ko nabore naintindihan ko cya in a very deep sense na and somehow napapaiyak nga ko e buti na lang nacontrol ko and nung nakita me ng sister na nagpupunas ng luha sabi ko masakit na ung ngipin ko napapaiyak na ko...hehehe...could you believe twice ko napanuod ung movie na un...grabe noh?!...napromise ko kc e sa sister ko e...sunday - we hear mass at morning and good thing d kame nalate sa mass...after dat i talk to my mom bout my plan of priesthood sabe ko wala lang i just sed if dat is possible my family dont know yet dat mae and i were not anymore a couple...my mom was surprise ( i didnt tell her yet even my sister ) about my plan she...i just said dat im giving a time frame dat if im not married at age 30 i will enter priesthood...to my surprise my mom did not talk bout how was mae or why she just tell me dat think carefully...well she's not interested about my relationship with mae boto naman kc cya dun e...and i just tell her dat it was a possibility and just a question and not in a factual way and tone dat mae and i are not lovers anymore..( kaya cguro d na ngulit bout her kala nya wer ok and mejo she's in a mood pa nga na mae and i will be married someday....aaaaayyyyy so sad maybe it will not happen anymore..oh GOD y? pro sana kame pa din talaga...)...after dat talk with my mom i realized d possibilty of priesthood and mejo nagiging concrete na nga cya e....here is d plan i will give my self a 5-7 more years on my professional career...maybe the whole 7 yrs sa thomson or other co. cguro...i will take a third language course spanish ( tagal ko na to plano e ) and an mba for career growth after dat baka magpari na ko as a benedictine monk or a jesuit priest ( most likely benedictine )...den after ko maordain na priest e i will continue to study sa rome by dat time i know 4 languages na latin, spanish, english and filipino )...cguro dun nako tatanda para d ako tumaba...hehehe...actually concrete na ung plan kaso hesitant pa din akong isulat cya d2 sa blog ko kc d ko pa kaya isulat e just like mae's story...cgruo der will be a ryt time for dat...basta as far as i know im living dis days of my life one at a time...cause only time will tell when, how and where...

im so sorry

2005-05-02T14:56:00.000+08:00

i have to say sorry for those who have read my last post on this blog...nagmura kc ako actually its very unlikely of me...pro nung nasa beda pa ko halos ganun ung batian namen e...pro sa bahay hinde sobrang parang anghel ako ( hay naku hope my sister would not read this )...im so happy lang dat time, ecstatic having finish ( no almost done with dat project )...mejo nasamahan pa ng pagkamiss kay mae kaya cguro ganun...once again sorry i dont mean to offend anybody...and i know ung iba nagreact because of the work cguro po my malaking part ung work pro actually i miss something no not something i miss someone...i also miss my mom, my sister, my brother and my dad...pro i dearly miss her na talaga...

malapit!!! miss na kita blog!!!

2005-04-27T21:21:00.000+08:00

hay naku im almost done na sa lehman project!!!! ( exuse po ha i hate to say this pro tang - ina talaga sa wakas mejo ok na....sori talaga bout the word pro ganun talaga ako pag mejo pressure and ngarag na cguro )....i feel almost relieve ( hopefully ok na )...i feel bad bout everything that happening to me ryt now...dont know why nga e...its almost over pro i feel uneasy...mejo traumatic cguro bout the past...baka madami na naman mistakes e...hay nu ba yan i can compare na my life into my work na....grabe na to...pak kc tong Lehman na ito...grabe sa pasaway at parusa...imagine this day delayed ung Lehman files for today and were trying to beat the deadline tlaga and der goes the email na Northern Trust is a very sensitive client wen it comes to data accuracy!!! SHIT talaga...i almost missed dis blog to express my mood ryt now!!!...somehow mejo ok na ( sana nga noh!!! )...i hope ok na ung Lehman ko...check ko pa cya....i miss blogging na!!!!....cant wait for the weekend also...cant wait to see my mom para my mapagsabihan me ng hinanaing ko and iconsult ko kung magpapari pa ba ako....

sunday morning...

2005-04-24T09:19:00.000+08:00

hay sunday morning....relaxing but tiring...ironic noh?!...ewan ko ba...i miss my mom so much na ( not because wala na kong pera )...still remember the grande island outing...sins last post ko e tuesday na kung saan c pareng nelo e na tats e kwento ko na lang ung wik ko...pampatangal miss and bore din un...wed leave c andrew ( uhm...rison for a legal OT to hehehe ) so nag ot ako...thurs - well still the same a toxic day because of the Lehman project and we had dinner at KFC with my officem8s...friday - its earth day! nag ot ako for the Lehman project again ( sumisikat na talaga tong c pareng Lehman a!!! )...den after dat went to xaymaca the band dat was playing were ok d sikat pro hard core reggae and bob marley songs ung tugtugan...but i love to see kitchie nadal kaya i went to tomas morato to watch the earth jam...there were so many bands playing from parokya ni edgar, sugar free, sponge cola and op cors my peyborit c kitchie nadal...before this great band some artist render songs 2-3 songs like the Akafellas and ung k gabe valenciano na acoustic band ung farenheit ( hope i got the band spelling right ) at ung jologs na hip hop...i failed to watch ung mga reggae band na tumugtog pati ung cla grace nono, lou bonnevie ( tama b ? )...astig din c RJ jacinto grabe sa gitara parang c john mayer ayos ung tugtugan nya!!!...natapos ung earth jam mga bandang 2 am na yata tapos bumalik ako ng xaymaca andun na ung brownman revival cguro d nakatugtog sa earth jam kaso mukhang d pa cla matatapos baka mga 3:30 pa kaya d nako tumuloy gusto ko mag ot ng sat e...sat - nag ot kame..i arrived at the office b4 3pm yata so 1st ko munang ginawa ung monday task ko tapos nangulit sa ym cla diane, mel at nelo and nabasa ko ung coment ni nelo...hehehehe tol drama mu...love you guys din...harharhar...tapos inubos namen ung plum wine sa ref nila mel, di at nilo..d pa nakuntento tong mga to nagbukas pa ng 1 bote grabe na to... tapos e tumakas na kame ni nilo kc nagpapasama ako sa kanya na mag canvass ng digicam...sins nawalan cya ng digicam at ako naman e gusto kong bumili ng digicam for my sister kaya nagpasama na ko...nakita namen cla boggs and rach sa glorieta...nagcut na naman yata to e...tapos nakita namen c charo sa sm hahahaha....tapos grabe ngpicturan sa labas ng glorieta kasama ung mga nagday-off...hahahaha...c chona mae ni nelo...harharhar...dis sunday i have attended the 7-8 am mass...cant wait for monday...beat the april 29 deadline for Lehman..cguro wala muna blog for dis wik..ah so sad...

tuesdays...cant still stop tinking bout the outing..

2005-04-19T18:34:00.000+08:00

hay naku toxic tong tuesday na to...but twas ok pa naman kahit pano...yesterday were busy looking at our pics in subic sa grande island...masakit pa din till now ung sunburn ko grabe talga...monday was sir joey's bday...ok naman ung mga pics ko kahit my pic ako dun na tulog sa kalasingan...i had a happy weekend because of the outing ang bilis nga d ko namalayan na tapos na pala ung outing nung sunday...hehehe...ung lehman mukhang magpapasakit samin dis wik till next week or buong april pa yata to...were still in the mood to talk bout the summer outing and also looking at the pictures...now i begin to wonder will i have another thomson summer outing next year?...or how many thomson outing will i attend?...or maybe kame pa kaya ng mga kateam8s ko ang magkakasama sa outing?...baka mabawasan baka madagdagan o baka naman ako'y umalis na...a bahala na nga d din natin alam ang bukas....basta ako madaming iniicip as of now...cant stop thinking bout her...how was she....and also i still do think about the thomson summer outing...ah this memories will always be remembered the 1st outing dat i have fun...maybe because nakapagbond na kame for more than months unlike my 1st outing which i was so silent and shy...but now i had a good time with my officemates and teammates...

the day after the beach!!!!

2005-04-18T17:17:00.000+08:00

twas a lazy monday for me ( masakit ung shoulders and back ko kc nagkasunburn ako e ) and last week i was also so lazy to write an entry in my blog...havent yet get over about getting older now or maybe excited bout the summer outing nah!!! d naman cguro excited i just look forward lang kc first time e....i spent my friday nayt at xaymaca reggae party till dawn ( d naman till 2am lang )... injan talaga to c dennis minsan lang ako mag aya na sumama cya sa trip kong gimik drawing pa cya...have 3 bottles of san mig strong ice and nagkape sa starbaks west ng mga 3am na yata un hay naku d ko n lam ung exact time kc my amats na din ako nun e...im sure na b4 3:30am ng saturday e nasa haws na ko...i plan to sleep pa dat time but my experience tells me " wag na boy baka d ka na magicing e d ka pa makabangon at makasama sa lakad "...so i decided to reflect muna bout my week ( o db ang galing no kahit mejo my amats na e nakakapagreflect pa and mag isip ng malalim )...im tinking na kayo ako sasama e baka pag d pa ko sumama d2 sa summer outing na to baka d ko man lang makabond ng maayos ung mga kaopism8 ko and kateam ko and tawagin pa ko na kj...i have wasted a lot of oppurtunity dis pas months but no regret pro my konting panghihinayang din kahit pano...den it was 4:15 na nung mejo nahimasmasan ako sa pagmumuni-muni ko nagpamiscol at tinetxt ko na c boggs para magicing cya tapos bumili ng pandesal and palaman kc plan namen na magbreakfast na lang sa opis...after dat naligo na ko para matanggal ung amoy ng alak at mabawasan ang sakit ng ulo at amats ko sa bir...pagkatapos ko p lang maligo e dun pa lang ako nagpack ng mga gamit ko sa outing ( ayos noh!! )...i got 1 can of sausage para sa breakfast namen sa opis and went to mrt at around 5:00am...kupal na talaga tong mrt kc 5:15 na d pa din nagpapasakay e usapan pa naman namin nila nilo sa opis e mga 5-5:30 magmit...nagtxt na c boggs na papunta na pati c nilo andun nasa opis...mga 5:40 na yata ung 1st trip ng mrt last sat morning ng kupal noh!!!!...so i decided na bumaba sa ayala at magtaxi paopis imbis na makapaglakad pa sana ako exercise din un...so mga 6am na ko nakarating good thing wala pa ung mga kateam8s ko pro cla boggs nakakain na ng bfast namen so nagbfas na ko...tagal ng mga kateam8s ko talaga pati c wenjie late na naman daw just like last year outing...fastforward na natin sa bus e d ko makatulog tapos trapik pa pasubic picturan sa bus at lokohan ang saya...while were waitng for the ferry sa subic papuntang grande island e picturan pa din at lokohan pa din and im looking forward to a good weekend and outing...sa grande island e we have lunch but before dat we search our room pa and sobrang layo, and after the lunch i took a rest kc pagod na ko kaagad e...kaw ba naman ung pagbuhatin ng DALWANG bag tapos mejo masakit pa ung ulo kc mejo nakainom e, ok lang ung 1 bag kc magaan lang ung sakin kahit malaki un e ung iKALWA mejo maliit cya kaso mejo mabigat e...hehehe...tapos ung gitara ko mejo nahahampas p...i failed to watch the race kc nakatulog na ko e bumangon na yata ako mga 3:30 or 4 na yata just in time for the meryenda...hehehe..tapos nun e ung mga team8s ko e ready to swim the beach na cla around mga 4pm na yata un e...den after dat e naligo na tapos laking malas nga naman nagbrown-out pa nung time ko ng maligo...almost more dan an hour dat the whole island ( i guess so ) was so dark because of power failure...we wait in our villas to restore the electricity den we went na for dinner and sa program of the nayt...hehehehe...but after dinner ung banda na tumugtog e cumbanchero yata un e...d ko trip ung performance and tugtugan nila ( maybe it was not s way i expected )...i tot i will see people in their beach attire since it is said sa email na strict ung dress code for beach attire and nagalisan na din pagkadinner e para maginuman na...the nayt was so long we had our scrabble tournament dat i lost ( o ayan i was a gentleman to accept my defeat kc 3 times un e and i know i have no room for excuses for dat )...kc i tot i can make habol pa sa inuman ng department para makaepal pa sa pagkanta ng broken sonnet or any song just to perform or magpakwela o makipagkwentuhan sa iba at makibonding...i hate d feeling den na pa rang my ibang mundo kame imbis na nakikisama sa kanila at nag-iinuman din...kaso we have an aggrement and lady luck was not on my side for dat 3 games...i cant believe it myself dat i lost...tapos nakapangko pa ko k dennis na magiinuman kame ulit kaya cguro i was not focus and conditioned for dat...good thing my mga ka department pa kame na d pa tulog and lasing somehow nakabond and nakakwentuhan namen cla...sayang ung moment to talk to others kc impression sakin pala ng madame e suplado at isnabero ( sakit naman nun )...e mahiyain lang talaga ako sa hinde ko kaclose and kilala e...so after i lost the scarebble game i went on my real business sa outing ung mag-enjoy and magpakalasing hehehe...kc libre naman un e....harharhar...para nga walang nangyari nung gabi na yon e...hehehe...lasing na talga c dennis and im on the mood tlaga na maglasing kahit panu naubos naman ung mga drinks at konti na lang ung inubos nila nilo and jarsen...hehehe...pro astig pa din ako ramdam ko na ung ispirito ng alak kaya habang maayos pa ung lakad ko e pumunta na kami sa villa namen kc nagiba kame ng place sa my equities villa e mejo mahahaba din ung nalakad ko na diretso parang d lasing...good thing my mga beddings na agad sa labas ng villas kc nahirapan akong umakyat e at malamang pagapang na ko makapunta sa kwarto kaya sa labas na ko natulog...pag-gising ko ng sunday morning katabi ko na din sa labas ng villa cla jarsen at nilo lasing din...buti na lang madami ung mga beddings dun at hinde naman ako nasikipan kc malikot ako matulog e...( justified to nung mga pics kc habbit ko nakadapa matulog tapos my pic ako na nakatihaya na ko tapos DALWANG kama pa ung naoccupy ko )...hehehe...tapos nung mejo nahimasmasan na ko e lumipat na ko sa loob ng villa my aircon na at natulog ulit....mya mya ng konti tong c boggs e nggicing para magbfast na so kahit masakit ung ulo nagbfast na para magcape na din...pagkatapos nun e natulog ulit ako masakit pa talaga ung ulo ko at lasing alcohol pa ung pakiramdam ko e..at maya maya ng konti e tong c rach e nggicing para mgswimimg na daw tapos kung anu-anu ung ginagawa samen nitong c bulinggit..nagbuhos ng alcohol sa katawan namen pati nabuhusan nya c clark ko ang hapdi talga at tumalon talon sa kama ko lalo tuloy ako nahihilo sa pinagagawa nito e...sayang ung cam ni nelo kc andun pagtalun-talon nya pati ung superman jump ko andun din e...tapos nun e nayaya din nya kame ni boggs na magswimming even against our will kc my hangover pa nga e...nagbanana boat cla gusto ko din sana kaso d ko kaya sa kalagayan ko dat time...gusto ko tumalon sa tarpulin sa dagat at magstay dun at magpapic kaso my hangover pa talga e...pagkatapos magswimming e namulot kame nila claudz at bulinggit ng shells...after dat e naligo na mejo ok na pro masakit pa ung ulo ko nakakahilo tapos naglunch na kame...dennis lost his wallet sa sobrang kalasingan nawala nya tuloy ung wallet nya...we rode the 2nd batch ferry off to subic just like sat morning 2nd batch kame...tapos my libreng pang wine from grande island kc nagkabrownout e...hehehehe...ung bus namen na sinakyan e super bagal...ako pati c wenjie lagi namin cnasabihan ung driver na are we there yet ( parang c donkey noh? )..we took pictures sa bus and pati sa ferry mas ok nung pabalik magpicturan sa ferry d n kc masyado mainit unlike nung papunta dun mainit e...sa opis na ko bumaba para sa opis ko na lang itago ung wine ko and check my emails and ilagay ko ung mga stones and shells and souvenirs from grande island...d2 ko na sa opis naramdaman na my sunburn ako kc tong c rach e nagmamadali na magswiming nakalimutan ko tuloy magsunblock e ( kaasar talga to c bulinngit ) sakit pa ng katawan ko kc magbuhat ka ba naman ulit ng DALWANG bag e...kaya ngaung monday e mejo tan na ko sobra at my sunburn pa...im wearing pa naman a barong today kc wala na ko masuot and tutal monday naman e habit ko na din magporaml kahit panu every monday...mejo napahaba yata ung post ko a tapos kinukwento ko pa ung weekend ko and ung mga tots mejo not in order pa...hay...lazy monday nga to...hehehehe...

my long weekend....

2005-04-12T20:21:00.000+08:00

it was my 1st leave at the office ( for 2 days monday and tuesday )....it was a long and wonderful weekend for me....i spent my friday evening with a so late dinner with boggs and after dat i went to greenbelt and oh boy, Amaya was there d girl at xaymaca dat i met, we talk for a while and just simple hello...i had coffee at starbucks wid my friends and it was almost sat midnight ( ryt? )...after dat we went home, i took a ride wid my friend who also lives at qc.. i didnt go to xaymaca coz i dont know whos d band playing and made my night bad...i know dat san miguel has a summer event at megamall and most of the band even reggae bands were invited to play there....sat- i went to my dentist but before dat my mom cook a great food hay naku parang fiesta....hehehe d naman ok lang ung food i also had my haircut done ( hehehe ) my bro and i decided to have a summer look which we always do every summer...my sister was laughing because at were kalbo and she called us kalboys....hehehehe ( corny talaga noh?! )...after dat my friends and i went to beach ( hay naku maybe somehow naka pagbeach din dis summer )....sunday was a rest day for me we hear mass and relaxed d whole day....i was so happy on monday morning at last i can wake up at 10am which i usually do last 2 yrs ago but i wake up at around 8 or 9 because im worried bout the work dat i left at d ofis...im happy for today coz i can somehow watch tv from morning till evening, i love being a couch potato ( tama ba spelling ko nito...hehehe )...tuesday morning i woke up almsot 11am ( ayos talaga to!! ) went to my dentist before lunch and went to manila to have time to prepare...but a txt from nilo makes me woke up in my ciesta time he is having problem in lehman ( talaga namang lehman yan o pasaway yaw makisama!!!)...so i went to office but before dat i went to glorietta and landmark to look some things dat i might need in our summer outing...so im here in the ofis checking nilo's work and updating my blog...i had d best long weekend....

my birthday

2005-04-08T21:47:00.000+08:00

i didnt expect to be so much happy this day even if im working this day...hehehe...it was so fine that i received so many text messages as early as 11pm of last nayt ( april 7 ) for their birthday greetings to me...i was so happy and somehow it made my day great with my mom and dad called in the morning and also my siblings called me later in the afternoon ( my brother and sister )... i didnt expect to received a txt message from her ( i tot she dont remember it or will not greet me )...but somehow it me made think and realize if she still cares for me or has she moved on?!.....oh girls!, cant understand wats in their mind...im not good in reading omens just like the boy in the alchemist but somehow i feel something...i miss her...so much dat somehow i cling and long for her but i know im in the process of letting go now because i know and accepted that she's out of my life...but one thing i know just a word from her of getting me back i will not think twice to be with her again even if i know dat there is risk ( a greater risk )...yah i know i didnt calculate the risk but the hell i care this is not business nor investment...well its good thing dat i have good friends here in the office who made my day wonderful...i hate appreciating with so much arte...im just a simple person with a simple hi or hello would do or even just a simple recognition will do...i hate ( read: hate! ) those people giving recognition in public or in front of many person....y? its just simple dat i dont want people to read my emotions because somehow im afraid to show it...im happy for today but somehow im still hurting....its my bday and somehow GOD made possible for me to be happy this day...thanks for my lekats friends for a wonderful day...and i have a new blog skin thanks for ms. di ( sana my broken sonnet sound track na =)...the pope had his funeral in my birthday day and somehow it made me feel sad...i had a happy bday....i will have a long weekend coz im on leave on monday and tuesday....will be back on wednesday...maybe wen im back i will surprise my teammate......hehehehe

the wednesday

2005-04-06T16:08:00.000+08:00

this day was the treat of the this week's april birthday celebrant....my officemates ron ( april 4 ), ewoi ( april 7 ) and i treat our teammates for meryenda...im not excited ( honestly ) about my birthday, maybe because im still going to work on dat day, wat excites me is the weekend and my 2-day leave in office...im going to file my leave tom pa nakaleave kc c pete e....im hoping but not assuming dat i will have a new earphones ( sony or philips,sa tower meron nun, will do kahit wala na ung rasta cap ) hehehe....no seriously kahit anong gift ok lang sakin basta nakaalala ok na...i was malling last weekend searching for the angels and demons book of dan brown, unfortunately they were all out of stock powe books glorieta and megamall....i havent try the national bookstore yet...im so sad that on my bday will be the pope's funeral...cant wait for the weekend!!! i know i will hear many stories from my sister, my brother and my mom...i will tell her my plan ( the one that i discover dis week ) and catching up things...im looking forward to meet my uncle ( my closest uncle )...hay another year for me will come and here i am, nothing new still immature in so many ways but im proud to say that somehow i became more responsible....but still immature in so many things....damn it still hurts and im not yet fully recovered but somehow i make it through......

thank you pope john paul II

2005-04-03T18:30:00.000+08:00

it was a sad news this day that pope john paul II is dead at 9:37 pm april 2 on Vatican it was 3:37 am here...he was a good man; a man of brillance ( in many things ) and eloquence ( speaks well and know a lot of language )...im not that much a religous person but he inspires a lot in different things...oh god i miss my mom and my lola because they will share their experience about this because it will be my 1st time to witness a changing of pope and i know they have kwento about this...as i heard todays mass and surfing the net, the chruch expresses thier thanks to the GOD that He gave pope john paul to the catholic church...the man was so full of charisma as i heard pope should be formal and his moves must be systematic but john paul always breaking protocol, carry a child and accomodating to people who want to kiss his hand...i dream of always kiss the ring of the pope...the pope, cardinals, bishops and monsignor have a ring which why some of us thinks that we kiss the hand but it should be their ring...i have kissed the ring of our bishop in Lucena once and said to me dat i was a bright boy because i kiss his ring and not his hand...i dont want to say more things about the catholic papacy...dis blog is for personal use and not for lecturing and besides im not the type of person who is a know-it-all dude..even if i know something maybe i will share it but not in a boastful manner and not in my blog..i just express my emotions ryt now dat im sad about the pope's death...this man was so influential to me actually i look upto him dats y i still entertain the thought of priesthood...his will and strenght is so strong that so many illness have hit him and still serving with all his might...failed to be assasinated and yet he forgave the assasin, what a merciful man full of wisdom...im lost for my thoughts ryt now maybe i was affected but not that deeply or maybe because i was a catholic or maybe a person who was devoted to my faith even if sometimes ( maybe all of the times ) a sinner a watever it be i always believe in GOD...i know pope john paul II will be in heaven and still praying for us....

im back at xaymaca

2005-04-02T16:19:00.000+08:00

last nayt i was in xaymaca...well im back in my old habit...my friday nayt and gimik spot for almost 4 yrs na yata to e....dat was d start were i appreciate the reggae music not to mention the ska, afro music and the sound of percussions ( read: joey ayala songs and bayang barrios etc. ) it was so good to feel and hear this music again relaxing and a natural high beat and tempo which makes you dance ( unlike those hip hop song which requires an angst and anger mood just to feel the beat )...this habit started on my 4th yr college days but i do listen to the reggae music since college....the people i saw las nayt was ok, some of them are familiar faces while others were new ones....most the crowd were girls i was 1st positioned at my usual spot wen im all myself near the bar...since honey was an injanero i was a loner at dat nayt...i saw a gay couple kissing which for me really sucks!!! i hate dat kind of scenario and in a reggae bar were all people are rastah!!!...because i was so pissed i went to the other side...and oh boy the side that i went was more gils dan rasta dudes ( quite lucky eh?! )....heheheeeee...after an abstinence on gimik and party now im back...just to be relaxe and have fun.....

april 1

2005-04-01T19:16:00.000+08:00

no one played an april fools on me ( good thing no one dares )....i reflect about the march, if i had a good month, achievements, memories etc. etc...so far march was a good month...wat makes my day sad was the news that the pope was given the last sacrament / rites, the sacrament of annointing of the sick..the pope was gravely ill even if they say that the last sacrament should not connotate "that it was given to a dying person." the pope was old and had a not stable health conditions since the start of the year...i remember last march 5 i think, i was in a retreat serving as an auxiliary of San Beda retreat, we were talking about the pope's worsening health condition...even Dom Maps said that the pope is really weak and tell something about the last revelation of our lady of fatima to sister lucia ( hope i got it ryt and remember )...let's all pray for the pope and hope all for the best on what GOD's plan on him...

whacky thursday

2005-03-31T19:01:00.000+08:00

i cant imagine that ive done so much dis day, have a yosi break and bonding time with kuya ian and honey ( although i dont smoke ), serenade a last day officemate and finally the pictorial at the roof top with my best buds teamates...ive done considering dat it was a usual day for us toxic day ( no market was on holiday )...well my day started with the usual work, work and work....at around 3pm kuya ian sent an mp3 of coffee break island a ska-reggae band ( song was good!)...den hani said na magyosi break daw sabi ni kuya ian mya kc dame pa daw cya work..den mya mya go na sa baba and nagyosi cla...nagkwentuhan about life and catching up things...the usual asaran and tsismisan sa isat-isa...we talk about the coming company outing...hani's banana boat adventures and kabibobibo na gawain and ian's comment about it...hehehehe...den after dat butch requested to boggs and me to serenade jobelle ( hope i got her name ryt coz i dont know her personally ) and we planned to have a picture taking sa roof top ng building...at first i tot dat mauna muna ung pictorial kaso toxic pa ung mga lekats e.....so boggs decided to rehearse a song for our officemate and we choose you by the carpenters to sing...den we serenade jobelle boggs playing the guitar while im the one who sung...oh boy i had a hard time singing my tooth aches and nervous take the best of me...but somehow naapreciate and narecognize naman e....looks like were starting to make a career out of it?...nah! only in my wildest dream...so after dat mejo padilim na and mukhang nagtampo na c andrew, e sins kame ung coz of delayed e we pursue the plan pictorial...we had our pictorial and my sumama pa na iba cla butch, marlon and frank and the lekats gang...andame namen sa roof top and nung pagbaba namen muntik pa kame sitahin ni manong guard ng pfizer...hehehehe...i was amaze by the sight although it would be my 3rd time na yata na umakyat dun kaso it was different kc padilim na mas ok ung view...pinagtitinginan na nga kame sa kabilang building e they think cguro dat wer insane na....hehehehe...some of the pics nga pala if u want to view them e nasa berkster link...i think it would take a long time before i would post a pic here in my blog...adios...

all boys tuesday

2005-03-29T19:15:00.000+08:00

oh boy we were all boys in our team today...we have 5 analyst and the 2 girls were on leave and the 3 of us were all boys and here covering for their work...somehow d p din toxic kc most of our market are on holiday due to the easter monday which take effect on us this day..it was my sister's graduation today and also my graduation day also last 2003...i have said to my sister na naunahan ako kc my nagfile na kagad ng leave kaya i cant attend her graduation and im the only missing person sa family namen that would miss the event...im also sad kc i found out na nag-CI na pala sa bahay about my credit card application and my mom rejected or decline na magpaCI so bottom line i my application was also decline...my plan, palambing and paconsuelo to my sister was ruined coz i cant buy the digicam and im still short of cash for that..my day was full of memories of my graduation and i know my sister also cherish her graduation we talk naman last sat and sun about mine and the experience of it...my family went here to see my graduation with my lola and my 3 aunts, my beautiful sister was my official photographer which my classmate always ask about her ( hirap talga pag all boys )..the feeling was good pro d ako naiyak unlike high school i felt happy and ecstatic dat time...one i cant forget dat day was my mom asking me about mae's grad gift to me i answered a kiss ( hehehehe )...my mom smile and ask no more even my sister became jealous saying dat un na din daw gift nya sakin...heheheehe..ooopps teka i dont want to elaborate more about it...mae and i were on separate lives and ways now for the past 3 years with her was great i cant ask for more a girl with beauty and brains and the personality with a great attitude...i hope somehow she txted my sister i know they miss each other because they talk and became good friends telling stories about me...i hope my sister had a great time on her wonderful day although i miss it but i know ill make it up with her...i love my sister so mcuh now that im single and not looking...she is the 2nd girl in my life after my beautiful mom...as far im here i will be a overprotective kuay to her...ung mga classm8 ko nga sa beda d nakaubra kahit my mga hitsura ung mga un...its great to know that my sister and i graduated on the same day wat a coincidence it was...im praying for her to be a successful CPA and have a good career...i have to hear stories of her graduation and comments that i know would be a long hour of conversation when i got home...My support, congratulations and love will always be with my sister...so my brother was the only one left studying and currently 1st year high school going to 2nd year..

easter monday

2005-03-28T16:55:00.000+08:00

we dont usually calebrate easter monday but in europe they do...and somehow it takes away a lot of work load on us.......d na masyadong toxic..hehehehe...and this monday we do check the trading and market prices on friday's trading and lucky most of market were on holiday ( my holiday din pala cla and Catholic din....hehehehe )...this day last 2003 was our baccalaureate mass in San Beda..( yes i was batch 2003 graduate.)...it was memorable because that would be the last mass that i have attended na high mass / concelebrated mass as a student....i was so impressed the way benedictine priest celebrate mass ( they were known as the good presider of mass and good singers also the Gregorian chant was a benedictine music part of sanctus benidictus )...i was surprised that day because i received a recognition ( surprise talga kc d ko alam e wala yata ako nung las praktis ng mass e..)it was a friday that day and after the mass we were the school treat us for lunch ( actually bayad un e!!!) i thought bawal ang meat but we had lunch with meat meals maybe they ask permission kc that time e lenten season pa...after the lunch i went home to rest and my mom call that they would arrived tommorow at 8am for the graduation rites...( in the mass no parents kaya sa grad rites lang cla pinaatend )...Honey txted me na magxayamca daw kame sabi ko sa kanya tol grad natin tom matakot ka baka maaksidente tau, e sins bord na din ako pumunta na din kame...grabe dat day kc muntikan na kame masagasaan ng car at 2 times un ha...pro cge pa din kame...hay nareminisce ko lang kc wala naman masyado work sa opis e kahit nakaleave c mel...

my easter sunday

2005-03-27T18:23:00.000+08:00

easter sunday, the Lord has risen!!! before i moved on my black saturday was a sleep all day...it was so great that i gain strength and refresh...i had my via crusis and rosary at friday evening around 10 pm at St. Paul the apostle church...then went home off to lucena... the moment i arrived i sleep and have a wonderful rest...back to my easter sunday moment, we hear mass at the Lucena Cathedral at around 9 am then went home....we ate lunch and after that i read the newspaper ( inquirer ) i was bothered by the news about the pope's health and also an article catch my attention...it was about the good friday sermon of a cardinal who presided the mass at Vatican...it was about the book of Dan Brown's "Da Vinci Code" saying the book was making a story about Christ affair with Mary Magdalene and taking advantage by using Jesus to make story and gain profits out of it...a cardinal from Brazil ( i think ) said that the church should not make comment about it because it would cause curiosity to people to read the book and become more popular...for me the church should not make a comment on that and besides it was a fiction novel and i dont read the book but as a catholic it would not affect my faith if i read it...but i will still read it but first i must read the first one the "angel and demons", i will search for that book this week...im also bother that the pope was seriously ill and might not participate on the holy week event at Vatican, im looking forward pa naman sa easter mass nya...i just pray for his health....well this holy week even i work the whole weekdays i had time to reflect somehow im still a good christian catholic..

a good friday

2005-03-25T19:20:00.000+08:00

im so sad that this good friday im still here in work while i should be in lucena observing and reflecting...im sure my mom and my siblings miss me so much...( assuming noh?! )....in the office we played christians songs for a while and somehow we reflect while working....im planning to have my via crusis ( station of the cross ) this evening and pray the rosary....im looking forward to leave the office at 6:30 pm ( wow early noh? )....im questioning now if im a devoted catholic christian, you see working on a good friday and cant find time to fulfill my religious obligation...well im trying to execute my plan somehow to feel the lenten season...oh boy!!! being a corporate slave is so hard...i know the medicine and hospital expenses would not be sufficient in the ot pay....since its good friday i guess i should reflect and not be mindful of other pains in life...we should not forget that Jesus Christ sacrifice a lot for us and for me that matters a lot...i should be thankful that because of Him my sins were all washed away...just reflecting on the song Anima Christi...

my maundy thursday

2005-03-24T17:30:00.000+08:00

its so unusual y d dates of d holy week changes every year....i remember the day i was born it was a holy thursday...geez my mom was telling me that it was so hard, to find a hospital and contact his ob-gyne...and last year, my birthday was also a holy thursday..a so sad i cant have a birthday party to celebrate...but i guess it was ok the essence of having a lenten season is not to celebrate but to recognize the passion and resurrection of Christ..same as birthdays, it is special but a simple recognition would do, just to recognize that your existing in this world with your age...im so sad for this day because it would be the first time that i would miss to have my lenten confession and via crusis ( station of the cross ) and also the maundy thursday mass..speaking of the holy thursday mass last year also was a memorable experience for me..cant forget that washing of the feet mass, i sung the latin song "tantum ergo" which as i know that the priest or maybe the commentator would do to sing it...ok i maybe overreacting but at least the priest should know the song but sadly he dont know the latin song...oh my god even the pre school kids at san beda could sing it...so sad and frustrating...i cant go to "bisita iglesia" because the churches i know here in manila were only few tapos malayo pa e i dont have a car....so far my thursday just an ordinary day....toxic on work...but somehow i played lauds, vespers, praises and christian songs...lastly it was also this day that i received a call from JG Summit informing me that i didnt make the final list of candidates for panel and final interview...i was the one of the ten students sent by our school for the management trainee program of JG Summit...i should not to be bitter about this but cant help to remember it...maybe it was part of my lenten reflection....

holy tuesday and wednesday....

2005-03-23T15:48:00.000+08:00

well just an ordinary day nothing special. holy tuesday was spent at the office working. cant help to reminisce the past i hope it's april na so that i will not remember special dates and memories..im planning to read the da vinci code but i should start first on angel and demons...cant wait for the stars wars final movie..my tuesday was an ordinary day toxic on work...my mom still worry about me..my sister always make kulit about her graduation gift.....i want to give her a monkey stuff toy ( hehehehehe )....no i hope my credit card application be approved and im planning to buy a digicam for her..( honestly its for the threee of us...hehehehe..)...im glad my sister will graduate on time this march and i know she can get a job quickly especially in a call center ( english speaking kc cya e )...but i know that my mom and i wanted her to be a CPA and then she will pursue law....my holy wednesday was also an ordinary day...i cant feel its holy week, the mrt was still full of passengers going to work. still it was a good day. i still do have time to pray the rosary in the evening and i envy my aunt coz on thursday she can go to lucena already while i still work till friday...i think it will be the first time that this holy week will be an abstinence of meat..hope i can do it...starting to reflect this lenten season...

a holy monday blues

2005-03-21T17:31:00.000+08:00

twas monday and start of the holy week...the week was started by a bad news of manny pacquaio's defeat, muslim threat on national security and the evat issues on both house of congress and their special session....im looking forward to a good holy week for this year because last year was not a good one....imagine spending my birthday on maundy thursday and feasting on seafoods and vegetables meals!!!!....i had my 1st experience working on a holy week ( monday to wednesday which is so unusual to me )....i remember last year's holy monday was kuya honey's birthday ( yes he is male but not gay....my best bud ) and he is trying to convince me not to stay on ISS after my probi period and turns out to be a good advice....twas a fine holy monday for me my mom always txt me to check if im ok....i cant eat and my head ached the whole afternoon...tot nilo how to ftp and help him in our project even if he makes fun at me the whole morning....starting to appreciate the soup with rice meal ( damn soup are for appetizers only!!! )...and of course the holy monday for me is the start of a spiritual reflection, healing and forgiving....

con todo!!!

2005-03-21T11:16:00.000+08:00

i know its too late to post my reaction on the classic boxing match of manny pacquiao and eric morales....its so sad that pacquiao lost in that match...but he showed a good fight.......a head cut in the 5th round and blood flowing on his face in the next 6th to 12th round and he still fight with gusto!!!....i know the fight will be bad for manny starting the 5th round head butt and the txt message of nilo last sunday ( spoiling the outcome of the fight by informing me a bad news!!! )....well maybe it is a good lenten message for us that the lost would be a humble experience for us as a nation that we should be more humble like morales keeping his silence and respecting pacquiao as a good fighter....well the match should also served as a nationalistic perspective that in win or lose situation we stand as one as a nation...if pacquiao win then the Filipino win also and if he lost we also lost because as a nation the pacquiao-morales boxing match unite us as a one nation...its not that manny pacquiao lost its our country's lost also...ooops im talking nonsense now and i dont want to talk the fight as a boxing fan or an activist point of view as much as possible i just want it to be a simple reaction..

my first

2005-03-18T18:21:00.000+08:00

aaaahhhhhh finally my first and official post to my blog....and cyempre i would like to thank rach and dianne for helping out setting up my blog....( ang gara naman )....i thought na it would take time for me to have a blog kaso my topak yata ko nung cinabi ko kila rach and dianne to help put up a blog e and right away meron na agad and di lang yun ang shala pa ng pagkakagawa ng blog ko...its march and almost a quarter of the year has past na....i cant forget this month especially wen i graduated college last 2003....hehehehehe...

lasenggo survey

2005-03-17T19:16:00.000+08:00

1. hard o beer? - beer, traydor yung hard e...
hard..pait ng beer e..
mel: beer
eloi: hard ba yung baileys? basta ok kahit ano...
[Charo] hard, lasang juice lang
michiko : beer po
2. gran matador o barcelona? - barcelona. mas mahal eh.
ewan..di ko pa sila na-taste e
mel: none of the above
eloi: wala di pa ko kaka tikim nun eh
michiko : wiz ko pa na try yan eh
3. colt45 o red horse? - red horse, best friendz!!!
red horse pa lang natikman ko e..
mel: colt45 :)
eloi: wala pa rin di ko pa atikim yun eh
michiko : yung dating model ng Colt 45 na naging kapitbahay ko once dito sa TF ;p
4. gin bilog o gsm blue? - gsm blue...
GSM BLUE!!!
mel: gin bilog! :P hehehe loko lng
eloi: gin bilog pa lang tikim ko eh
michiko : alam mo ang sweet mo ... GSM blue .hehe
5. stag o beer na beer? - never tasted these... sori
hmmmmmm....ano ba 'tong mga 'to?
mel: wala
eloi: malay
michiko : N/A
6.fundador o emperador? - fundador. mas swabe at mas matindi. emperador pang-mahina.
ewan...cguro fundador..mas swabe daw at mas matindi e
mel: wala rin, yaw ko ng rhum e
eloi: fundador
michiko : N/A
7. vodka o tequila? - tequilla, sarap!! lalo na pag ksama asin at kalamansi...
VODKA!!!!
mel: TEQUILLA :) fave ko 'to!
eloi: kahit ano nga!
michiko : tequilla empre ...
8. lambanog o shoktong? - lambanog....
lambanog siguro..ano ba ang shoktong?
mel: lambanog (bubblegum flavor lng ah!)
eloi: lambanog! di ba pang masyonda shoktong?
michiko : lambanog na lng
9. pale o superdry? - pale...
pale?
mel: none
eloi: light, sige na nga pale na!
michiko : pale cguro...
10. sanmig light o strong ice? - light lang... sori ha!!
STRONG ICE!!
mel: san mig light sympre
eloi: sanmig light
michiko : empre Wapak ako ...
11. kelan ka huling uminom ng beer o alak? - last friday
march 8'05
mel: same as dianne
eloi: same as mel
[Charo] feb 11, 05
michiko : kagabi
12. mabilis kb malasing? - ehehe.. basta madaldal, makulit tsaka laughing trip ... yun lang!!sobra! kaasar nga e!
mel: gosh!
eloi: tanong nyo kay mitz, hehehe!!!
[Charo] di pa ever
michiko : slight...
13. nagsuka knb sa kalasingan? - o naman, kelangan labas para di sobra hilo...
yup...many times
mel: always!!
eloi: twice na! so twice pa lang ako nalasing sobra!
michiko : but opkors
14. cno ang gusto mong ksama kpag umiinom? - wavemates and teammates, tska mga barkada ko sa bulacan
friends
mel: lekats
eloi: lahat kayo friends ko
[Charo] kayo
michiko : lekats empre
15. anong madalas mong inumin? - light/redhorse
VODKA ICE!
mel: san mig light
eloi: bailey's! at san mig light din
[Charo] cocktails, masarap din vodka ice
michiko : WapAk !!! pero now nahawa na k di vodka ice na.
16. house o beer house? - house/aprtment, sori kung baduy, mas at home kc tpos ksama frends.. may kama/couch pa!
house...para mas comfy :)
mel: it's the company that counts not the place :)
eloi: kahit kaninong house! hehehe!!!
michiko : bahay po

my first-ever post

2005-03-16T18:55:00.000+08:00

When it comes to blogging, I'm still groping in the dark. This blogging thing is entirely new to me. I'll get used to it in not time, hopefully. Brace yourself for more updates....

Welcome aboard!

my first-ever post

2005-03-16T18:51:00.002+08:00

I still have to get used with this blogging stuff. Brace yourself for the lastest updates on my life!

my first-ever post

2005-03-16T18:51:00.001+08:00

I still have to get used with this blogging stuff. Brace yourself for the lastest updates on my life!

ha!

2005-01-18T20:01:00.000+08:00